Same Old Love (GaWong)

Twenty-Five

Deanna's

"Saan ka pupunta?" Tanong ko kay Jema na naglalagay ng damit sa backpack niya.

"Bahay" Tipid niyang sagot sakin.

Simula nung sinabi ko sakanya yung totoong nangyari nung isang araw ang cold niya na sakin. I know what I did was wrong pero sana naman wag siyang ganito.

"Sasama ako, maliligo lang ako" Didiretso na sana ako ng banyo kaso pinigilan niya ako.

"You're staying here, you're not going with me. Saglit lang naman ako dun, dito ka lang babalik agad ako."

"How can I be so sure that you'll come back? Tska I told you na diba, I should be with you everywh-" Di na ako natapos sa sasabihin ko dahil pinutol niya ko.

"Ang kulit. Babalik ako. Hindi nga lang muna ngayon." Hindi ko na narinig yung huling sinabi niya.

Hinalikan niya na ako sa pisnge at tuluyan na siyang lumabas. What's with her? Parang the other day lang we're happy. I knew it, sana hindi ko nalang sinabi sakanya yung nangyari.

I texted Luigi, it's been a long ass time since we last saw each other, since Jema and I got back together, the day we went to palawan.

To: Gi

Luigi, you up? I need u rn.

Sent!

Sana naman magreply siya ng mabilis. Humiga naman ako sa kama at tinignan ang kisame.

Will she come back after all what I did just to fucking protect her? Will she forgive me for not telling the truth about what happened? Overthinking sucks. What will I do if iwan niya nanaman ako? Ofcourse, I'll be fucked up again.

1 message from Gi

Yeah yeah. 5pm, I'll go there. See u.

I didn't reply to his text anymore, pinikit ko nalang ang mga mata ko and the next thing I know is....

*knock! knock!*

"Open the fucking door, Deanna! Kanina pa ako dito!!" Nagising ako sa kumakatok sa pinto at sumisigaw.

I look at my wrist watch and shit it's already 5:45 pm. Si Luigi! Paktay.

"Walanjo, Deanna!!!!" Bumangon na ako at pinagbuksan siya ng pinto. I haven't take a bath yet holy sh.

"Sorry, Gi! I fell asleep eh." Kinamot ko naman ang kilay ko.

"As always! By the way, I brought some snacks and drinks." Then he showed me the paper bag that Im sure he's been holding that for hours now.

"Thanks for coming, Gi."

"Something wrong? I heard that you and Jema got back together? When and how, Deanna? Di ka na nagkkwento." Natawa naman ako sakanya.

"Long story, Luigi. But, atleast Im happy because she's back and she's mine again." Sabi ko at tipid na ngumiti.

I checked my phone kung may text ba na galing kay Jema pero expect the unexpected, there's no message from her kaya nagsalita nalang ulit ako.

"Gi, do you think kaya umalis ngayon si Jema dahil hindi ko sinabi ko sakanya yung totoo?" Tanong ko kay Luigi na nagpakunot naman ng noo niya. Hindi niya pa nga pala alam yung nangyari.

Inexplain ko lahat kay Luigi, every detail, I told him. At first he's schocked dahil hindi niya alam na the one & only Fhen Emnas can do that. I mean, who would've thought right? That a not-so-angelic-face has a demon attitude.

Bawat sentence na sinasabi ko kay Luigi, sinasabayan ko ng inom. I know Im not used to drink heavily, but I want to feel that "nawawala ng panandalian ang problema kapag umiinom" feeling.

"So kaya siya umalis ngayon at tinext mo ako dahil dun?" Tanong ni Gi at tumango naman ako.

"Ganto yan Deanns ha? This is just my opinion and not a fact. Why don't you just give her time para ma-process sakanya yung nangyari diba?" Napa-ngisi naman ako sa sinabi niya.

"Time? What the hell, Gi! Pwede naman kaming dalawa yung humarap sa sitwasyon na to diba?"

"Yes, yes Deanns I know, but iba yung sakanya eh. You know Jema, you know your girl, she's too emotional especially ganyan pa ang nangyayari sainyo, but even though she's emotional you know that she'll find a way to fix this right?" Hays, Luigi's right. Iba si Jema mag handle ng sitwasyon, ibang iba siya kesa sakin.

Kung ako, bara bara, siya naman she's taking it slow para maganda yung outcome pag naayos yung sitwasyon. Gets niyo?

Pero iintindihin ko naman yun eh, I understand her because I love her. Naiintindihan ko siya, Im her girlfriend and that's one of my responsibilities, ang intindihin siya.