Rose and Scorpius, A True Love

CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE

This is it, today's the day. It's been two months since I've seen Scorpius, he hasn't written to me or anything all summer, and now it's our last year at Hogwarts. I took one last look in the mirror, I was so nervous. My long red hair flowed in waves to the middle of my back, and I was already wearing my Hogwarts robes, the HG badge gleaming in the dull light coming through the one window in my bedroom. What if Uncle Harry was right? What if he's totally forgotten you!? No don't be stupid! Or worse! What if he isn't there!? What if someone else made HB! Oh shut it already, Weasley, your over reacting! I pulled myself from my negative thoughts and sighed heavily, made sure my sapphire necklace was still around my neck, and ran downstairs with my trunk. Romeo was already in a cage in the living room when I made it downstairs. My mother was reading a book, waiting for Hugo and I to be finished getting ready and looked up when I entered the room. "Oh Rosie, your father isn't-" I cut my mother off, "he isn't able to go with us to the train station because of work, yea I know." I said quietly, straining a smile. My mother sighed heavily and nodded her head, "look- I know you have been ignoring your father all summer- but you need to let it go. He's truly sorry..." My said with pleading eyes. She's been telling me to forgive him all summer, but I can't seem to do it. He should have trusted me when it mattered, and I can't let it go just yet. Dolohov is gone again, and I can't forget how he accused Scorpius and called him filth. The thought of seeing Scorpius again made my stomach churn and shivers run up and down my spine. "Rosie? Are you ok?" My mother had set her book down and was staring at me intently. I stood up straight and waved my hand, "oh yea I'm fine, just nervous about the first day as HG." I said, it wasn't really lying, I was nervous. My mother smiled kindly at me, "I am so proud of you. You have turned into such a beautiful and responsible young woman." She whispered, making me blush. "Hey mom! Have you seen my quill?" I heard Hugo yell from his room down the hall. "Which one?" My mother called back. "The eagle feather one that wrote in changing colors!" He yelled down. My mother rolled her eyes, "Hugo, look on your desk." She called back. We waited for about ten seconds until we heard a loud, "ooooooh!" Come from his room. My mother smiled to herself as she began to look at the time. My mother had fully excepted Hugo being gay, as had most of our family. Uncle Harry finds it a little weird, but isn't judging, and as for my father, well I think he's pretending it never happened. "Alright Rosie, do you have everything packed? We need to get going." My mother said, standing up and going down the hall to inform Hugo. This is it! I'm finally going to see him again!

The platform was as packed as ever, owls hooting and cats meowing, even a few frogs croaking in their cages as students hugged their parents. I looked everywhere, but I still couldn't see Scorpius anywhere. "So you still haven't heard from him?" Harley asked as she watched me jump up and down on my toes trying to find my platinum haired, silver eyed Slytherin. I sighed heavily and stopped jumping to look at Harley. "What if his father pulled him out of Hogwarts just to keep him away from me?" I whispered, dread forming in the pit of my stomach. Harley shook her head, "yea right. Draco Malfoy seems crazy, but I think even he knows that's over reacting." She said reassuringly, pulling me into a hug. I heard a click and saw a bright flash. We turned around and saw Albus had taken a picture of us. "Albus? What are you-?" Albus has never taken pictures so freely before, he usually waits till most people are gone and it's just people he doesn't mind seeing him with his camera. "I thought you were too shy to take pictures in public?" Harley said with a smirk. Albus looked up from his camera and rolled his eyes. "Harley, it's our last year at Hogwarts. I don't give a shit anymore." We all laughed. We heard the train whistle and saw this as our time to get on the train. As we got into the crowded corridor, I began to look around again. Where are you? "Hey, you coming?" Albus asked as I continued to stand, looking. I looked at him in confusion. "Babe- she's head girl, she has her own compartment and jobs to do." Harley whispered, glancing at me sadly. "Oh yea... I forgot." They gave me a weak smile and walked down the corridor, I however needed to walk in the other direction. When I reached the compartment, I took a deep breath. And I'm sad to say I checked my reflection to see how I looked, before opening the door to find that Scorpius was not there. No one was. The Head Boy hadn't shown up, and I felt a swell of disappointment. I sighed heavily and sat next to the window and watched as trees and meadows swam past my view. I heard a click, and heard the door slide open and I didn't move. I kept looking out of the window, too scared to move. I closed my eyes tightly, took and deep breath, and looked behind me. When I opened my eyes it was to see the familiar silver eyes that belonged to the one person I loved. "Hey..." I whispered, too shocked to move. His Hogwarts robes seemed different on his body, almost limp as if he's lost weight, but I could see his HB badge gleaming agains his black robes. And his face seemed a little thinner... His hair that use to only sweep just above his eyes, was now so long it was past his ears. I could see his silver eyes through the long bangs of his shaggy platinum hair, and they looked so empty. They didn't sparkle like they use to, they were cloudy, and his face, while still beautiful, seemed pained. "What did he do to you..." I whispered. I felt my eyes prickle, and I was so scared I was going to cry again. Merlin I've missed him so much, and here he is, looking like he was tortured all summer or something. My heart was aching, and the compartment was so quiet. All he did was stare at me, he didn't say anything and it was killing me! I stood up and began walking to him, but he backed away and held up a hand, indicating for me to stop walking. Oh please no, his face is giving me too many hints of what he wants to say... "Scorpius- please talk..." I said quietly. His eyes never left mine. "Three months." He whispered. "I was left in that hell hole, for three months." He chuckled the last two words, and my eyes were brimming with tears. "We tried- but Harry said you told him to leave." I pleaded. He ran a hand through his long hair, and his eyes were scrunched up as if in pain. "Scorpius- what happened?" I walked closer, but he backed away, and he was now in the corridor. "We can't see each other any more, Weasley." He whispered my last name, and it was like a giant bucket of ice water was thrown over my entire body. "But why? We tried to get you out-" he cut off my pained words. "It isn't because of that." He said firmly, making me tense. I looked into his empty and soulless eyes as he stared at me with a face filled with determination. Like he had to prove something... "Over the summer I realized how little I cared for you. You mean nothing to me, Weasley. Nothing." He whispered, and I gasped as I felt a pain stab somewhere in my chest. He closed his eyes tightly, and opened them again and I was frightened to see how determined he looked. "You were just a play thing. But I'm bored, and you are not worth all this trouble." He whispered tensely. "Why? How could you say something like that?" I whispered, feeling a tear fall. He looked away from me, "we are finished." He whispered through gritted teeth. "That's it? Your just bored? Or is there more behind this!?" I asked loudly, finally finding my voice. He shut his eyes tightly and sighed heavily, "I'd rather we hurry up and discuss rounds. We need to meet up with the prefects." His voice was so quiet. I felt so empty, so hollow... I looked at him with wide eyes, "fine..." I said quietly, no emotion in my voice, and I was pleased to see him flinch at the sound of my voice. I slowly walked past him, no more tears in my eyes. Nothing. No feeling, no pain. There was nothing. Just like what I thought was love. Nothing. As I walked past him, he reached out and grabbed my wrist, "Rose-" he began to say weakly, and the nothingness turned into anger. Cold, dangerous, fresh anger. SMACK! "DONT YOU EVER! CALL ME THAT!" I screamed. He stared at me in shock as he rubbed his cheek where I had smacked him. I turned on my heel, and stormed into the prefect carriage, my red hair swinging behind me. All the prefects looked at me in surprise when they saw me enter, some even looked fearful when they saw my wild eyes and red face. I slowly walked in, trying to calm my breathing, but damn was I angry! "Well, I have all your names." I tried to sound professional, but it came out rather bossy. Scorpius walked into the compartment, red hand print still on his right cheek. Everyone looked from Scorpius to me, some looking confused, some looking curious, and some looking nervous. I pulled a scroll of parchment from my robes that I had made this summer. "Here is the schedule for rounds. All it needs now is to be approved by the HB." I said simply, straining a smile as I handed Scorpius the parchment. He looked over it, nodded his head, and handed it back without looking into my eyes. I waved my wand and it was duplicated into eight copies, I handed one to each prefect. "If any prefect has any question, they are to ask I or the HB. Are there any questions requiring your responsibilities?" I asked in a clipped tone. A Hufflepuff girl raised her shaking hand, "where will meetings be held?" She whispered shyly. "The HB and HG share a personal common room, there is where you will meet us all for meetings." Scorpius said quietly, still not meeting my gaze. I looked around, no one said anything. Actually, everyone was quiet and looked rather awkward. "Well, you can now go to any compartment of your choosing. However, prefects need to patrol the corridors. So how about..." I looked around, and pointed at the Ravenclaw boy, "Beachum, and..." I pointed at the Gryffindor boy, "Sanders. You two patrol the corridor for the first hour, then Willows (I pointed at the Hufflepuff girl) and I will trade places with you for an hour, then Carols (pointed at Slytherin girl) and Berry (Hufflepuff boy) can patrol for an hour, then Harris (Ravenclaw girl) and... Malfoy." I said quietly, feeling so cold and sick saying his last name. I waved my hands, "and so on and so on." I whispered. "Go patrol, Beachum, Sanders." I whispered before pushing past Scorpius and running to the bathroom. I locked the door behind me and slid down to the floor. I couldn't even cry, I felt so broken. I felt so used. So lied to. I stared at the wall in front of me blankly, not sure of what I needed to feel. I stood up and checked my watch. I still had hours till we arrived at Hogwarts. All I wanted to do was curl into my warm bed and forget about everything. I unlocked the bathroom door of the train and began to walk down the corridor mindlessly. I had to just check... When I arrived in front of the HB and HG compartment at the front of the train, I was so relieved to see it was empty. I stepped inside and locked the door, and drew the blinds. I slowly walked over to the seats, and laid down, my head resting against the seat closest to the door. I could hear the steady rushing sound of the train engine, and could smell the fabric of the chair as I breathed slowly. I pulled my knees to my chest and closed my eyes, I wasn't even remotely sleepy. I just wanted to be anywhere but here, anywhere but on the same train as him, going to a school where I will see him everyday. Every single day... I felt a shudder run through my spine at the thought of how much pain I will feel all year... I let my mind drift to fond memories, it relaxed my mind a little. To think of something familiar. His laugh. His arms around me. His lips against mine... I almost didn't realize when I started to sob into the chair, tears pouring from my eyes. And pain radiating through the heart he had somehow taken with him...