Living next door to an idiot

32. They're coming for us

Dinner had been absolute torture even though Dante would say that it went otherwise. Throughout the whole half an hour that everyone had sat around the table Dante could not keep his hands to himself. What had made it worse was the fact that I couldn't help but feel heat from his hands evade into my thighs. He knew I wouldn't be able to speak without either shouting at him or letting out unnecessary sounds.

At one point it had been so bad that I thought I was about to grip his hand and just drag him into one of the bedrooms. God knows with what strength I managed to dive my heel down onto Dante's foot but I had done so and that was when I knew I had to get away from him before he tried to retaliate by humiliating me or just making me want him even more than how much I already did.

The fact that every single one of his touches, whether they were just a poke or his arm wrapped around my waist, it made me feel like some giddy cliche teenager who was head over heels scared me. Never had I seen myself where I would be right now and I definitely did not see myself in love with someone who had been so closed off and someone with such a bad reputation.

Love ... that was a word both Dante and I had not brought up since I saw he was alive and walking on his own two feet without the support of a machine. I guess we avoided it because in a sense I knew for a fact I was too scared to bring it up again and he probably did not want to admit it since he wasn't the sort of guy to openly talk about their feelings. It had taken me less than five months to fall in love with a guy that I once wanted to kill scratch that .. who I still wanted to kill only this time I would do my best to resurrect him.

He made me feel things I never thought existed, do things beyond my imagination and as cliche as this sounds I think he showed me the fun and wild side to life, the side of life I had not experienced until I had met him and I craved it alongside him.

The second dinner had finished and I had finished clearing up the table I couldn't help but feel overwhelmed and a sudden urge or all these strange emotions just surge through my body. I guess my Aunt knew something was up because she gave me a simple nod before leading me outside to the garden so I could get some fresh air and just clear my mind.

All the events over the past four months just flashed through my eyes and I couldn't believe so much had happened. I had reconnected with my brother, I had gotten together with Dante, I found my best friend only for my boyfriend to beat him to a pulp, Juli had broken up with her cheating boyfriend, we were involved with gangs and that wasn't even the start of it. How on earth had I let this happen? My life had completely flipped upside down and I wasn't the innocent little girl I used to be.

"Hey, beautiful. What's wrong?"

My head turned around abruptly to see the one person I sort of did not want to see right now. I currently needed a little space from quite a lot of people so I could just stabilise my head and see what I was doing with my life. Yet here was the one person that had made it his life goal to be a part of mine and not go anytime soon whether that was for better or for worse.

"Hey." I muttered quietly before turning my head back around and simply laying across the grass staring into the night sky.

He walked across to me before deciding he too wanted to lay down on the grass and stare up at the sky. Out of all the days today as the one day where oddly there were no stars in the sky and it just looked rather dim and dull which seemed to be the opposite of how I was feeling.

"Tesoro, you didn't answer the question." He spoke quietly as he could probably tell I probably had a million thoughts running through my mind and none of them seemed to make sense. However, the worst part was I did not know why my stupid brain decided to overthink my life today, a day I was supposed to be smiling and happy.