"Okay, Colette, I think I know who I am in your life... I am..."
He coughed right after he nailed that line, a seemingly important call sent him to the hots.
"Declan, is everything alright?" I bashfully inquired. I knew he was not fine.
"I am... I am... I'll go to the outside for a while. please excuse me.." He managed to say with his phone between his ear and shoulder.
"I can go with you, if you like." I said, and that was it. He did not come back after two hours and asked one of his many men to "bring Miss Parker home." I felt like a kindergarten kid scolded and sent home.
As soon as I have reached home, an enveloped, typewritten notecard was upon my table with a bouquet of lilies and carnations. I smiled. Well, I was returned to the moment in Colorado Springs Hospital when I received an IKebana arrangement with a letter from Grandma Jill. I held the notecard. I knew that I needed not to ask who it was from. I knew in my heart it was Declan who sent the note. My heart felt like it was shredded all over again. Everything reminded me of Nate. I did not know how to stop it or control it. It has been four years, but I knew deep within that I have never stopped loving him. All Nate did was love me and care for me. I did not open the note then. I left it sitting on the drawer and went to get a vase for the flowers. I knew what Declan would say, he'd apologize and thank me at the same time.
I went to my room and I wasat least thankful that Iwas emancipated from the stresses of the day. I missed Nathan Hall. I badly wanted to see him again, but I knew that what I then wanted was too far from possible. I slept with melancholy, but slight satisfaction. I was too worn out, too tired to even talk to Hallie, or to even call my family. I felt empty without Nathan, sad beyond compare. I have never been successful, but also, since we separated, I have never felt complete. I slept the night off. Tomorrow would surely be a GREAT day at work.
The night was soft, warm and mellow. I had Vivaldi's Four Seasons on my player. The night was perfect. No, scratch that, it would have been perfect if Nate was around. The night was perfect and I was not. My pillow was soft and comfy, except that it was soaked with my maskara and my tears. I could vaguely remember the last time I last saw Nate, and too bad, the last time I saw him, he was gloomy all over.
I did not know what time I was lulled to sleep, but all I know is that I forgot to place ice pack beneath my eyes, and the next thing I knew, my eyes were pompously battered with eye bags and a dark hue of grief. I frowned at the mirror. This is bad. People might think I cried all night because poor Colette got ditched by the handsome Declan M. Edwards. I juggled the ice pack over my eyes and I tried everything I could to clear the ugly face away. I placed loads of concealer and foundation and then added a few shades of eye shadow to make them perfect. I had lost a lot of weight the past four years. I looked really ugly compared to the happy me, four years ago. I could not believe that I was thiking abou Nate the next morning. I could not believe that after a brief encounter with him, he could make me in love with him for a long long time... no, forever. I looked at myself in the mirror and scrutinized my features while the ice bag was upon my left eye. I have changed a lot. I have grown long nails, I wear ultra red lipstick, I could carry around 7 inch heels without tripping, I could wear lingerie, but the giddy sixteen year old kid who was in love with Nathan, I could not believe that after such a long time, I found myself still in love with the same guy. Four years have gone, but I never found myself moving on. I was too heart broken to let go.
I took a long warm shower and decided to wear a purple zip up silk dress to the office. I grabbed my coat, my parka and I realized that I was back at my rusty old car a Lincoln '96. It revved loud enough to wake the neighbors, but it was all my grandfather had for me before he passed away. It was not a high- hat or an aristocratic, elitist car, but I was at least thankful that it was not a blast- off, tar colored truck. I was about to lock my small house when I realized that my usual "Home sweet home" mat was replaced with a furry mat with the big words "COFFEE IS ON ME" a small note was also stitched right under the big letters "7:15 at Bean n' Tea" right after the sub heading an embossed set of initials was placed "-DWME" Yeah, Who doesn't know who owned those big letters. D.W.M.E. Declan Wyatt Mathers Edwards. His name sounded like a dwarf name to me. Declan Edwarf. I chuckled at the thought. Well, maybe coffee was all I needed after an exquisite, ditched Masa meeting. I did not think twice. Who would turn down free macchiato?
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Love at its Weakest [Completed]
RomanceCoe, a typical girl who encountered an accident and found her hero along the way. The greatest challenge yet to come for her is to make the prince of her dreams fall in love with her, and the only way to make him fall in love is to go back to past a...