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Chapter: 5

TAEHYUNG

I sat here in the end, as I watch the Jikook couple having their own moments.

We are currently in a fan meeting right now.

I really want to sit beside Jungkook but since Manager hyung wanted me sitting beside Yoongi hyung he placed me here.

In the end.

While Jungkook and Jimin hyung is on the other side.

I just pouted while looking at the two of them.

Actually when I'm with my members on stage I felt that there's a huge gap between me and the others.

It felt like I didn't belong in this group.

It was like I was always alone, even though I'm with them.

It seems like there was always a wall between me and them that's like a barrier that excludes me from them.

I was always on the corner watching them having fun without me.

It hurts, of course because it seems like they are okay without me by their side

But for me, it's not okay. I think I won't even last a day without seeing them.

I was too lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice that Yoongi hyung is calling me.

"Taehyung- ah" He called me by my name once again.

I look at hyung and smile with my usual rectangular smile.

"Yes, hyung?" I asked, raising my eyebrows.

"Don't smile Taehyung. Don't smile if you don't want to smile, you don't always need to smile." Yoongi hyung said while looking at the fans.

My happy face earlier suddenly turned serious.

I'm not mad, it's just that Yoongi hyung is actually right.

That's what I don't like about myself, I keep smiling even though I'm crying inside.

I keep smiling even though I'm in pain.

It hurts me more because I know I can't stop myself from smiling even if I wanted to.

Because my friends are used to seeing me always smiling and happy.

I don't want them to worry about me.

I just wonder how did Yoongi hyung knows about that.

But I'm happy because someone knows that I'm not really okay.

Someone knows what I truly feel inside.