All I Have To Give

3 AM

I groan and slightly open my eyes "Not again."

It's pitch black in my room as I try to scan through looking for my phone. I can hear it ringing, but I don't know where the hell it is. I lifted my bed sheets and moved my hands around until I felt the damn thing. Promptly I sit up bed and debate on whether or not to actually answer the phone. I mean I didn't just do all of that for nothing, but I already know who's calling this late.. I don't want to do this right now.. Well technically I do, but I shouldn't want to.. So I'm not going to let myself fall into this trap again.

I look at my phone in my hand one more time.

He hung up.

I sighed "Problem solved." and placed my phone on the nightstand.

I got back under my covers and close my eyes tightly, trying to drift back off to sleep. My mind keeps racing with thoughts that I don't need to have right now.. I know why he was calling me and I'm sure he's shocked I didn't answer. Even I am. We've been doing this cat and mouse, late night hook up thing for so long and I'm tired of it. Maybe, I don't really know. As I'm starting to get a bit more comfortable I hear my phone buzz three times.

Mumbling to myself I say "Don't look at it, don't look at it, don't look at it.." 

I open my eyes and immediately stare at my phone.

I sit up and push the sheets away from me and reach my hand towards my nightstand. I just let it hover over my phone for a few seconds before snatching it up. I feel a chill up my spine.

Why am I doing this?

I unlock it and look through my notifications.

"Well, look at what we have here.. Three attachments from Nickolas."

I bite my lip before clicking.

As soon as I did, I felt flush. There was no time to properly respond, because three dots popped up.. I can only imagine what he's going to say. I wanted anxiously until he sent it. 

Ughhh I'm starting to think I lost my mind.

Nick: Can I come over?

Being straight forward I see.

I replied "Can u get here in 20 mins?"

It wasn't even seven seconds before he responded.

Nick: 10.. 

Nick: Omw

I threw my phone down and hurried to get ready, then swore repeatedly that this would be the last time.