A Second Chance

chapter seventeen

I spent the night at Meredith and Dereks house. It was my first time visiting their home in a long time. We had finished dinner and were gathered in the living room, Meredith and Derek were cuddling on the couch whilst I sitting on the floor with Zola in my lap. I kept playing the whole scenario in my head, I felt really bad for lashing out but I had too. Maybe i had taken it too far by spending the night at Merediths and leaving him alone but I needed the space. I needed to be left alone to take time to process things and to decide on how we move forward. I also enjoyed the time apart because I get to spend it with Zola.

"This is for you Lexie" Zola spoke as she handed me a plastic sandwich that she made

I smiled and took a bit "mmm, this is delicious Zola. The best i've ever had"

The smile on her face grew wider "I think that you should open your own restaurant, you would be an amazing chef"

"maybe" she replied as she took the food away

As she walked away I thought about how if I died in the crash i would not have been able to see Zola grow up. To see her become the most beautiful, smart, and successful niece ever. I would have missed that so much. I am forever grateful that I get to experience almost all the special moments with her. I love her so much.

As she walks back over I pull her into a hug and she falls into my lap. Her head is resting on my shoulder and I wrap my warms tightly around her, I never want to leave her again.

"Are you going to talk to Mark Lex?" Meredith asked

I nodded slowly "Yeah, I have too but I just don't know what to do. Like I cannot live like this, with him being protective. I need to live my life."

"He only had your best interest Lexie" Derek added

"I know, I know. I just don't know, I don't know what to do"

As I finished my sentence Zola lifted her head up and met her eyes with mine "please don't break up with uncle mark". She spoke in the softest baby voice ever

I started to tear up it, thinking about us breaking up was the furthest thing from my mind after spending years being on and off together. I didn't want anyone of us to hurt like we did before.

I lifted up Zola's pinky finger and locked it with mine "I pinky promise that we will not break up" She smiled "I love uncle Mark and you"

"I love uncle Mark too"

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It has been at least an hour of myself, Meredith, and Derek talking I turned my head and found Zola asleep in my arms.

"I'm gonna go take Zola to bed, then I'll probably call it a night myself" I spoke getting up with Zola in my arms

"We'll call it a night too" Derek said as he stood up and helped Meredith up too

We walked up the stairs I placed Zola in her cot and kissed her goodnight followed by Meredith and Derek. We then made our way back out to the hallway and as I started to make my way to the guest room Meredith stopped and spoke "Mark really cares a lot for you Lex, he tells Derek all the time how lucky he is to have you. He almost lost you once, yes he may have been overprotective but imagine yourself in his shoes. Could you live without him?"

I stared at Meredith for a bit until I nodded and we both parted ways. I then fell onto the bed, she was right. If the positions were reversed I could not live without Mark.