A Second Chance

chapter one

It felt like a huge mountain was on top of me, the plane was crushing every bone from my waist own holding me under. I couldn't feel anything, I was trapped under. The taste of blood filled my mouth from the open wounds on my head and inside of me. The taste of metallic poisoned me. My head felt like it was going to explode. I felt like giving up. I began to close my eyes wishing I was close to dying so this pain could end. But I heard a scream.

"Lexie! Lexie! Lex!" A familiar voice called

I opened my eyes and feel my chest tighten. My breathing began to fasten.

"Lexie!" the voice called again.

I moved my eyes around to find something to signal where I was. I found a grey seatbelt. I slowly creeped my hand towards the seatbelt, grasping it in my bloody hands. I used all the fight I had left to lift my hand up and bang it as loudly as I could against the metal.

"Lexie!" the voice called again.

In the distance I saw three figures fun towards me. They were hard to identify through my blurred vision but they came into focus. Meredith, Cristina, and Mark. Meredith looked to have a broken leg, Cristina had a sling on her shoulder and Mark looked faint like he was about to collapse at any moment. Mark lied down in front of me and took my hand into his.

"Lex" he spoke softly caressing my cheek. "Go get supplies" he added with a yell. Meredith and Cristina left.

Marks expression saddened as he examined me. I could see tears fill his eyes. "They are gonna be back any minute with supplies and we are going to get you stabilised" Mark spoke soft again wiping tears from my eyes.

But being a doctor, I knew better. My breathing was slow and stressed. My vision was blurry, my head was bleeding, and blood was filling my insides from being crushed by a metal object.

"Mark" I tried to speak but it was becoming too hard, I needed to save all the breath I had left.

"Just a few minutes Lex then they will be back" Mark spoke rubbing my forehead with his thumb then bringing it back down to my lips.

"Mark" I began to speak slowly. "I-I'm, I'm dying" my breath was shaky and my eyes closed for a few seconds then opened taking in the last few moments of my life.

Mark's expression changed to worry. "What? N-no you are not dying" he said heavily looking at me concerned.

I knew he was wrong. My lungs were going to collapse "I-I am" I spoke "Tell Meredith I love her" I added with a whisper gazing into Marks eyes.

Mark was still in denial "You are going to be fine" He said more sternly.

I could finally feel by body reach a cold temperature, breathing became a hard struggle at this point. I was coughing up blood and shaking uncontrollably. I just wanted to go already.

"Hold my hand" I spoke with all my energy reaching my hand to Marks. But he refused to hold it.

"I am not holding your hand because you are not dying" He pleaded with tears dripping down his eyes.

Cold tears dripped down my face. I was dying and all I wanted was Mark to hold my hand so I could go. I watched Mark get up and use all his force to try and push the metal off of me but he failed. I cried harder as Mark dropped back down to me. He wrapped his warm hands around my cold hand and placed a kiss on my hand holding it tight as we locked eyes.

"I love you" he spoke softly with a few tears falling making mine fall faster.

Those three words are all I wanted to hear for a long time. But I felt like it was forced after everything we had been through and we were not even together at this time.

"You don't have to say it just because I said it" I replied making sure he was not saying it just because I told him I loved him a few days earlier.

But Mark shook his head "I do. I love you, I love you, I love you" he continued to repeat squeezing my hand in his. My heart melted. I loved hearing those words. I wanted to jump up into his arms and tell him this was all a joke but it was not and I was dying. "I have always been in love with you, I will always be in love with you" Mark added. "Which is why you have to stay alive" Mark shook my hand and placed a kiss on it. I smiled weakly.

"We can get married, you are gonna become an amazing surgeon. We will have two or three kids" Mark cried harder talking about our forbidden future. It warmed my heart.

"Sofia can have siblings" I breathed out.

"A sister and two brothers" Mark added with a smile. My mind thought about names. I had always loved the name Eden for a girl and Reese and Cooper for boys.

"That's nice" I smiled.

Mark's voice began to croak as he started to cry even harder if it was possible. "You and me Lex. We are gonna have the best life Lexie, you and me. We are going to be so happy. So you can't die okay?" Mark tightened his grip on my hand scared to let it go. "You can't die" he whispered blinking the tears away. "Because we are supposed to end up together" he sobbed harder.

I could hardly breathe. I am leaving everything behind. Meredith, my dad, my friends, career, and Mark. How could I leave Mark? The world is so screwed up. I confessed my love to my soulmate and I am stuck under a huge metal piece. My vision became foggy, now I could not see anything. "We are meant to be" I heard him say. My heart crushed. I shut my eyes accepting fate.

I repeated "Meant to be"