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Chapter 50 - Lovesick

Leila's pov -

It's been a whole week.. a whole week since I've seen him...since he's talked to me, since he's touched me.

Amaris told me he's out for a week or more. It kinda...hurt.

Does he love me still?

Do I want to go back?

No

Yeah...I think the truth is, now that he's a part of my life it's hard to let go. Why is he letting go? Am I seeing this a wrong way?

Will I have to marry Zain then? Will he treat me the same way?

Of course he won't. I'm not important..even Damien's now leaving me. He finally realized I'm useless and he doesn't need me.

I'm so stupid. I thought...I thought someone finally cared about me. I'm so stupid. That's a bad words. I should just stop.

I have a fever and not only that, my boobs are so sensitive than before! I'm always sick in the morning! I faint more than before!

And the worse part. I feel like I'm over eating.

It will go away.

I open the dining hall doors. I sigh seeing it's empty again. I walk to my seat and sit down.

When will Damien sent me away. I wanted to leave in the beginning...but now i don't— maybe it's because I'm scared mama papa and Adam will kill me for being missing. For getting kidnapped. Maybe I can tell them I— no I can't lie...

"Dear, are you not going to eat?" Amaris said worriedly. I look down and see so much food.

"I-I'm actually not hungry anymore. I lost my appetite.." I said lowly. The thing is, every time I think of this situation I get more stressed and loose my appetite. And then I get extra hungry later.

I'm gaining weight.

For awhile I was fine because of..Damien but now..it just-

Why am I even forgiving him. He lied to me. He held so many people captive. He killed so many people. Maybe even innocent. He's a mafia!

I should be mad! I should be at rage. But I'm more angry at the fact that he's letting me go..so easily.

Amaris sighed at my respond. "Dear..again? This is a bad habit. You don't eat on time and start stuffing your face at night. You should try to eat now."

I ignored her remark, "w-where is he" I said looking down. I need to talk to him. To ask him, what test? What other lie is he hiding. To tell him when he's sending me back. Will he have to div...never mind.

Tears flood my eyes so quick. Why am I even crying. I should be angry. But I'm heartbroken.

My emotions are everywhere! I cry out of no where sometimes.

"I'm not sure.." she said sighing and sat down across from me and took bites of the food I refuse to eat.

Either way if I see him, or approach him, I'd be too heartbroken.

What if he found another girl?

"Also...dear, the doctor has to come tomorrow to check something...she has to run some tests. And maybe even surgery.." she said