Welcome to my life and my thoughts. Poems.

Meant for you

Just thinking about that person and what I meant to them, and how much they changed things. Also, it's fairly complicated...

I thought it'd be better to not see you,

To move on,

And not forget,

But lose those feelings,

I won't know if I was right or not yet though,

I'll have to wait to find that out I guess,

I've waited enough to get over you,

You had such an effect on me,

My life,

My emotions,

My feelings,

You made me feel special,

As if nothing could go wrong,

Like I belonged somewhere,

And someone loved the real me,

But that didn't last,

Did it?

You found someone better,

You moved on first,

That's not fair though!

You end it,

Then you tell me you miss me,

After you broke it off,

And tell me you want to see me,

All I wanted was yo see you,

To hold you,

To be mine again,

But I had to fight it,

I knew you ended it for a reason,

There had to be a reason,

Or you wouldn't have done it,

So I stayed strong,

Fought you off,

Not realising how much I needed you back,

Needed someone to be there,

But after fighting you off and how I felt,

I told you I missed you,

And needed you,

But you threw it back in my face,

I told you to move on,

So you did,

And now I see it's meant to be this way,

I truly meant it when I said I'd do anything to see and make you happy,

But you didn't mean it,

When you said I could always rely on you,

Count on you,

That you'd never leave me alone to fight on my own,

And that you'd always be there,

But you did leave me!

I haven't seen you since that first time,

I saw you,

And seen you had move on,

I think I'm over you,

But I can't be certain,

Seeing you could bring it all back,

I guess I'll soon find out,

I'll soon see whether I am or I'm not,

Because although you don't know,

And I don't know if I want to,

But I'll see you in five days,

Probably with her,

And surrounded by your friends,

I'll keep to myself though,

Or I know all that time I needed will turn into nothing,

But I'll make you see what you've let go of,

I'll maybe even with all the pain and anger,

I'll have to fight to come over,

And speak to you,

Maybe your voice would melt my heart,

Or maybe this time I am really over you,

And it won't change anything,

I'm not changing,

For anyone,

Because I am who I am,

But I just wasn't right and meant for you.