Welcome to my life and my thoughts. Poems.

As if I'm not there

Sometimes, as crazy as it sounds, I just want to dissconnect with everything, everyone and just detach myself from the world. Just for five minutes, to think things through and just relieve the pain and the stress. Sometimes, I feel like I'm not worth anything, that I don't deserve anything, these are the days I fear of the most. Where I just want to end everything.

I'm sorry if it feels to you that I've robbe you of your attention,

Your moments in the spotlight,

I don't want the attention,

Or need it because someone is more likely to notice and uncover the truth,

About me,

Uncover my lies,

But I won't smile,

Because I don't deserve to be happy,

When others aren't,

I won't cry,

When others don't who are in worse situations,

I won't speak,

When others can't because they don't have a voice that is hear,

I'll show no emotions because I'm not worth anyones time,

I'm not worth it anymore,

I won't be in this world for much longer,

So I'm sorry if I stole that from you,

I don't want to,

I want the opposite,

No attention at all,

As if I'm not there,

That I'm invisible,

See-through and not seen enough,

What more can do harm?

I'm dissolving into air,

Don't notice though,

Because it will only make things worse...