.Rise And Fall.

.Rise and Fall. (26)

|Chapter: 26|

I saw him go stiff on the side. His features darkened while griping the counter. I thought he could relate with me and then maybe open up because this was the only thing we had in common, we both lost some one we dearly loved. But I guess I was wrong. I guess I touched a subject which I wasn't meant to. I wanted everything I thought to put into appropriate words and apologise. But his silence filled the room crushing me from all the direction and making hard for me to even breath.

"Nightmares", he suddenly said with his voice low. I turn to look at him and met his eyes. The warmness in them were now converted to coldness. They were void, nothing but dark pit. Not a single dot of sadness could be found and that made me scared. Nightmares? What kind of nightmares that even thinking 'bout it makes him go this cold?

I wanted to ask but the words got stuck in my dry throat. He looked away before staring into the space in front of him. His eyes distant as he continued, "After his death, all I've been dealing is with nightmares." That explained the bags under his eyes and his worn out face. It must have been really hard for him. And suddenly I wanted to pity him. But that's the thing I've hated the most when someone did on me. And I'm pretty sure he won't like it too. So, I just nod my head.

"Its like he never left", when he said that my ears perked up giving him my full attention as I waited for him to continue. "Its like he is still watching my every move to take reve...."

The door bell rang interrupting us. He pulled himself out of his dark thoughts and turned to look at me.

I sighed standing up before walking to the door.

"I brought you M&M's. And you're welcome", Salvor said the moment I opened the door. I smiled at his way of greeting me. He handed me the packet and barged inside the house.

"I'm really hungry. You better have something in that fridge of yours", he made his way towards the kitchen where Nickel was still there. Oh shit! What do I do now? I ran behind him to stop but it was already late. He stood still on the doorway looking at Nickel and I stopped behind him. Before he could do anything, I jumped in front of him.

"Sal Iets talk...", I started only to get cut off.

"What the fudge is he doing here? Did he do something to you? Are you alright?"

"Yeah I'm...."

"The goody two shoes can't even say a fucking fuck", Nickel mockingly said from behind me followed by his evil laugh. He was standing so close that his chest was almost touching my back. I wanted to move away, did I really?

No actually, at some point I was enjoying and I hate myself for that. And then I hate myself even more when Salvor pulled me to his side and I missed his warmness.

"People like us", he said pointing his free index to us while his other hand gripped my shoulder, keeping me close to him, "are better off without those words. And we stick together."

Nickel's eyes went darker and I had a feeling of déjà vu. Not again. I hate to choose between people, even though it seemed it shouldn't be that hard. Because I will and will always choose Salvor. Right? Then why did I have a feeling that I wasn't sure anymore. Maybe we were in some deep talk before Salvor barged in and I want it to continue. Yea, thats the only reason. I convinced myself. Like last time he didn't walk away instead he put his hands inside his pocket and the evil smirk returned on his face.

"Stick together but yet not together. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk.", he said shaking his head. I didn't know what that even meant. But it somehow got to Salvor's nerves.