WattMag: Spooky November Issue

In a Brink of Disturbia

Title : "In a Brink of Disturbia"

Topic : Suicide

By : JustThirdy

Nasubukan mo na bang malungkot? Like nobody is there for you to listen & understand? What about being rejected? Being outcasted kasi you didn't fit in? O napepressure sa ano mang sa kahit anong bagay? Panu mo 'to nahahandle? iiyak kalang ba ng tahimik sa kwarto mo dahil dito? gaganti? O tahimik kalang? O di kaya ay magtatakang mag- Suicide. Marami na ang naibabalitang namatay dahil nagpapatiwakal. Suicide as they said. Bata man o matanda ginagawa ito. Bakit nga ba nagpapakamatay ang isang tao? Is it because they're depressed? Being doomed? Or outcasted? Yes. Because they are. They cannot handle their emotions kaya nawawala sila sa kanilang pagiisip sa sobrang depressed. They think that death can answer & solve all of their problems.

Lemme tell you a story. I had a friend. Lets just call him Jave Bañalo. A very spontaneous person, cheerful, charming & intelligent. Perfect para sa isang babae. When I was in trouble his always there to repremand me by doing such things. He always gives me advice about life & that made me a better person.

Jave was such a very happy person, so smart, very popular & im a lucky person to have him as a friend of mine.

But one day after our sem-break nabalitaan ko nalang sa isang kaibigan namin that he commited suicide. Nagulat ako sa balita kong bakit. Of course, sinong mag aakala na nagpakamatay ang kaibigan mong masiyahin at matinong tao diba?

Nagpakamatay sya gamit ang lubid at itinali ito sa bubong ng kwarto nya. Ayon sa mga nakakita. Higit sampung oras na syang nakabitin. Nakalabas na raw kasi ang dila at dugo sa tenga at ilong nito at nagiba narin ang kulay ng mukha.

Umugong ang balita sa boung bayan ang pagkamatay nya. At dahil dun pinatawag kaming mga malalapit na kaibigan nya at pati narin ang kanyang ex Girlfriend para itanong samin kong may problema ba syang binanggit samin. Hindi kasi ito nag iwan ng suicide note o ano mang makakapagpatibay sa dahilan ng kanyang pagkamatay. Of course we jump in into conclusions kung bakit ganito at ganyan. But sad to say hindi nag fit in ang mga conclusion namin.

We just found out after few days that he is hallucinating because of over taking his pills. Nung sem break daw kasi palagi itong balisa at wala sa sarili. Palagi dawng natutulog sa umaga at gising sa gabi at ang ginagawa lang ay magbasa. Her mom told me na nabanggit nito na may sumusunod daw at nagmamasid sa kanya at minsan sinabi pa nito na papatayin daw ng taong ito ang pamilya nya.

Nagpakamatay si Jave dahil hindi na nya makayanan ang mga naririnig at nakikita nya. He became crazy that time & committed suicide.

Hindi namin inakala na naging ganun si Jave. His one of our great advicers & palaging nagpapatawa samin. But all of the sudden ganun ang nangyari sa kanya. His a very big loss sa aming lahat lalo na sa pamilya nya na umaasa sa kanya.

Iilan lang si Jave, sa mga naibalitang nagsuicide dahil sa paghahallucinate. But most of the time marami paring nagpapakamatay dahil sa pagibig & most of them are teenagers.

Ayon sa survey 6 out of 10 filipino teenagers committed suicide in just one year.

Being depressed & lost may also trigger to do such things like that. Talk to somebody you trust & tell them what are your promblems. Hindi makakatulong ang palaging nagkikimkim ng problema at magmumukmuk and I know na hindi madali ang pagkakaroon ng matinding karanasan. But always remember that God is always there to abide & guide us. Take every problem as a challenge and fight for it!

Marahil nga ay magiging mapait at di natin maintindihan ang ating mga nararanasan sa buhay na maghahatong sa hindi kaayaayang pangyayari. But, there's always a chance & everybody has it. Life is precious. So? Take care of it & live. If you feel blue & empty, go to the park breathe in, grab an icecream & give life a smile. Dont waste your time drinking beers & brawl because that leads to something bad.

"Suicide is not chosen; it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain."

That's all it's about. If you're suicidal right now. It doesn't mean you're a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. Hindi ito na ngangahulugan na gusto mo talagang magpapakamatay - it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with. If I start piling weights on your shoulders, you will eventually collapse if I add enough weights... no matter how much you want to remain standing. Willpower has nothing to do with it. Of course you would cheer yourself up, if you could.

Huwag mong tanggapin kong sasabihan ka na, " para yun lang? Magpapakamatay ka na?." There are many kinds of pain that may lead to suicide. Whether or not the pain is bearable may differ from person to person. What might be bearable to someone else, may not be bearable to you. The point at which the pain becomes unbearable depends on what kinds of coping resources you have. Individuals vary greatly in their capacity to withstand pain.

When pain exceeds pain-coping resources, suicidal feelings are the result. Suicide is neither wrong nor right; it is not a defect of character; it is morally neutral. It is simply an imbalance of pain versus coping resources.

You can survive suicidal feelings if you do either of two things: (1) find a way to reduce your pain, or (2) find a way to increase your coping resources. Both are possible.