Entry Thirteen:
I'm writing a song.
It's for Louis.
Louis always said that he saw the song as it was behind the lyrics. He told me the writer gave a story that it took someone special to uncover.
Louis is definitely someone special.
I've decided that I want our friendship to be something more. Something.. Bigger.
Bigger than the world itself.
I need to know if he feels the same way I do. If he doesn't, oh well. Maybe we'll never talk again or our relationship will be even more strained. Surely he'll hate me.
But if he does, my life would be complete.
So I think I have to take that chance.
Because I'm tired of wandering around in his footsteps. We've come to a cliff, and Louis is going around it. But I have have the chance to jump over it. If we both walk around the cliff, we may never find a way to the other side. We might keep stumbling around for an eternity, me following reluctantly the whole way. And I know I can jump over at any time, but instead I'm playing follow the leader.
I need to take a stand.
So I'm going to jump to the other side.
If I make it, everything will be perfect. Louis will follow me and we'll live out our days on the other side of the cliff, away from all that is a threat.
If I don't make it, I'll fall into a deep abyss of loneliness and Louis will stand, staring at me in disgust from the edge, as I lay hopelessly on the bottom of the chasm. And then he will turn away and keep walking.
And never look back.
This song is like a cliff.
I can trip over the edge of life, or I can win whatever race I've begun.
Harry Styles isn't a quitter, oh no.
He is a winner.
(I'm going to stop referring to myself in third person, now. That was weird. But you get my drift.)
I mean...I...think I love him.
I just hopes he feels the same.
-Harry x
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