Kismet's Perfect Fiasco

Episode 53

Cygny

The next morning, I woke up with swollen lips and heated cheeks. I am staring at the fourty five tiles and one hundred eighty screws of my ceiling with an unbelievably surreal feeling.

Fudge.

I dreamt of Hue.

Fudge again.

Me and him. Kissing. Here in my room. On my bed.

Another fudge.

I slap myself.

I'm in trouble.

Naiinis akong ginulo ang buhok ko at pinagsisipa ang hangin. What the hell is wrong with me?! Gumulong gulong ako sa kama at parang baliw na umiling-iling. No. No. No.

Tumigil lang ako sa ginagawa ko nang pumasok si Harrie sa kwarto ko. On cue, I run towards him like a wild cheetah. Wrapped my arms on his neck. Then cupped his cheeks. He is staring at me as if I grew another head when I press my lips into his.

As our lips touched, I search for the burning feeling I felt last night with Hue but there wasn't. As his tongue entered my mouth, I want to feel the same fire crackling against my system but I can't. As he kissed me deeper, my body doesn't ignite the way I do last night. It's just nothing. Nothing but just a plain kiss. It has been always like that.

As I pull away, I awkwardly smile at him. "Good morning..."

He tousled my already messy hair. "I'll be downstairs bago mo pa makuha ang virginity ko." He laughed and I awkwardly join him. I really feel that the sound of my laugh is so weird that he chose not to notice it.

Nang makaalis na si Hue-- fudge, Harrie, ay nanghihina akong lumakad sa dressing table. Umupo ako at sumimangot sa aking sarili sa salamin.

I point my finger at myself. "Umayos ka, young lady!" I show her the ring on my right hand. "For Pete's sake, engaged ka na! Wala nang atrasan 'to!"

Pinagsasampal ko ang sarili ko.

"Engaged ka na, si Harrie na ang makakatuluyan mo... habang buhay. Uhm, habang buhay." My voice is as soft as jelly, conviction wasn't evident on it.

And as my subconsious smirked at me, I know, I am doomed again. I am sure, I am under the Sullyvan-Huego-Barameda-spell, again and I have to do my quickest escapade from it. Pero ang tanong, kaya ko ba?

***

Two weeks. Two weeks na ang nakakalipas, hindi ko na uli pang nakita si Hue. True to his words, he is completely gone to my life. But the ironic thing is, he might be physically gone, but the presence and effect of him from that last night is still haunting me.

Parang hangin si Hue, hindi ko siya nakikita pero damang dama ko siya sa utak at sa puso ko.

In fact, there is this point where I almost go to his University just to see him. Just to take a glimpse of his face. But thankfully, that didn't happen because Razel has to shake me forcedfully just for me to snap out of my trance. From that moment, I know that I have to settle my undone things with Harrie.

I love Harrie, God knows how much I honestly love him and how much I owe the second chance of my life to him. But I can't love him the way how I love Hue. The way how I still love that obnoxious guy.