Within 60 seconds (f&f fanfiction)

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Time: 3:27am

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Date: October 23rd
Dear diary,
I am moving today. but for once I actually don't want to leave this house. Its quite a shock really but Its true. As of now, Bryan lays beside me sound asleep and man was it a struggle to get him upstairs with his ankle. And with him being as confident and stubborn as he is, I watched him hop upstairs by himself and then listened to how sore he was once we got in bed. I'm writing tonight, because I'm too afraid of everything right now. I mean I am a werewolf and not any kind of werewolf but something stronger than a true alpha whatever the hell that is and I barley know how to control everything that has to do with it. I nearly killed Hail yesterday because he was in my house. I don't know what I'm going to do. They talk about full moons on google where the adrenaline is at its peak and that I could seriously hurt someone. Thank god there hasn't been a full moon lately but still, what if it actually happens? I've written pages and pages of notes on this. it scares the living shit out of me and I honestly don't know why. Its not that big of a deal says the Teen Werewolf and that it's a gift but like I said before what if I don't want it? I've just gotten to the point if someone asks if something is wrong I just smile and say I'm fine, even if my insides are eating themselves up trying to deal with all the stress. I'm done, I've dealt with death to many times to even count so that takes a big role in stress maybe a little more than it should. And now I'm getting married and I'm supposed to help Letty with her wedding being the maid of honor in her wedding. So, long story short I'm just a mess and I can't even sleep it off because now a days my insomnia is kicking my ass. I hope everything gets better, because if it doesn't I'm going to cry. - ST
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I sighed and closed my journal. I set it on my nightstand, turned off the lamp I will be taking with me tomorrow and rolled over facing Bryan. Naturally he pulled me in closer to him in his sleep and yawned.

"Why are you still up? Babe talk to me, what is going on?" Bryan asked tucking my hair out of my eyes apparently he could see in the dark, as for me I couldn't even see shadows of him.And I'm the super-freak with superpowers.

I sighed and held my breath trying to explain it in my head before actually saying something. "I'm just stressed. It's nothing to worry about it I promise. We can talk about it tomorrow" I was blowing it off. I really didn't want to explain my life right now.

"Okay. I love you" he whispered kissing my cheek once I rolled over. He held me close in his warmth and quickly fell back asleep.

I love you too... I mumbled just looking out in front of me into nothing.

Sleep was taking over my eyes and body but my brain fraught to stay awake. I found myself just staring at the wall for hours on end. The bad thing was that there was nothing there to look at. I was just staring into the blank space. I'm nowhere close to sleep. Just another ruff night for me.. No problem...

Time: 8:34am

I sighed breathing out softly turning onto my back. If my mind would only let me sleep, maybe I would be happy about the move. I mean don't get me wrong i want to move but I don't have the emotional state to move into my own home that I will be sharing with only Bryan. It worries me frankly. Just the fact of me having superpowers that I can't even control. What if I actually hurt someone? Anyone?

"Babe, did you stay up all night?" Bryan asked. His voice was raspy and cut in and out every few times due to just waking up.

"Yeah, I couldn't sleep" I mumbled flipping around to face him. I brushed his bangs out of his eyes that were starting to grow long once again. His hair was fluffy, peaked and messy from sleeping and his eyes were glossy trying to wake up. "Didn't have my pillow"