Phenomenal Fate

Chapter 14 🍃

"I'm so proud of you anak," i can see how my mother smiled while saying those words. I don't know what's happening but i still run and hug my mother so tight.

"H-how is this possible Mom?"

"Don't mind it anak, just hug you mother so tight cause i badly miss this"

Kahit naman hindi niya ako utusan ay talagang gagawain ko iyon. Sobrang na-miss ko siya at hindi ko alam na magkikita pa kaming muli. Is this possible because she's a naeor?

"You said that you're proud of me Mom. For what?"

"You're a great naeor anak"

Suddenly my tears fell down again. "I-i'm sorry Mom"

"Shh, wala kang kasalanan"

"You sacrified a lot for me and wala akong nagawa, andito pa din ako sa mundong ito"

Nagi-guilty na naman ako. Sobrang daming mga bagay ang na-realize ko nang malaman kong isa akong naeor at lahat ng iyon ay ang naging sakripisyo ng aking ina. Sobrang nasasaktan ako sa tuwing maiisip na namatay siya for me pero di ko nagawa ang ninanais niya, i hate myself for being stupid and weak.

"It was a wrong decision baby," kung dati ay luluhod pa siya para mapantayan ang aking mukha, ngayon ay tumungo na lamang siya at bahagyang ngumiti saakin.

"I didn't know that you'll have the green power that all of us was looking for"

"Is it that important?" i asked her

"Yes baby, it is. It is very important so i want you to do something"

"Anything for you Mom, as long as i can"

She smiled again and tapped my head kagaya ng nakasanayan niya noong bata pa lamang ako.

"Please be tough. Be a good naeor and fight for the nature. Use your power wisely and protect your bar of life"

Napapikit pa siya nang malapit na niyang matapos ang kaniyang sasabihin at mamaya lamang ay tumulo na ang kaniyang luha. Ayaw kong nakikita siyang umiiyak kaya naman pinunasan ko ito gamit ang aking mga kamay at muli siyang niyakap ng mahigpit.

"Are you sure about that Mom?"

"Yes baby, your mother is very sure," I was hugging her but then she slowly vanished into the air. I was left alone, for the second time. I cried a lot and i can't stop this freakin' tears until i heard a voice calling for my name....

"Jhazrell"

Napamulat ako dahil sa aking narinig. Nagpalinga-linga pa ako upang hanapin ang aking ina pero hindi ko ito makita then suddenly i realized na nasa mundo nga pala ako ng mga naeor at lahat ng aking nasaksihan ay isang panaginip lamang na kailanman ay hindi na maaaring mangyari pa sa tunay na buhay. I sighed after my realization and then looked at the girl who called my name, it's Maria who ones told me to call her Tita.

"Tita," muli na naman akong napaiyak at yumakap dito. Hindi ko alam kung paano kong natawag na tita ang isang babaeng hindi ko pa naman lubos na kilala.

"J-jhazrell"

"Please let me be like this for a while"

Nautal siya nang tawagin ang aking pangalan, halatang nagulat siya sa naging aksyon ko pero wala na akong pakialam. Bago pa man din siya makapag-salita ay nakiusap na ako dito na hayaan muna akong maging ganito.

Just because they can see me as a girl who always shout, laugh and raise my eyebrow doesn't mean that i can't be hurt. I'm a human and i can feel different kind of emotions, i can be sad, i can be happy and i can be mad. If y'all will judge me with the things you can see then y'all better shut up because you don't know me at all. I act differently at my house, at a public place and especially when i'm with the person i'm comfortable with.