What was I supposed to feel
when I'm tired chasing things
that won't be mine?
Upon screaming the
same thing over and over
—what was I supposed to feel
when no one was listening
on the other side—all along?Only the promise of death
and the temporariness of it all
has been keeping me sane
Do you know now—how I kept
fighting even though I'm empty?
It's because I know that as
discomfort is temporary
—poverty is everlasting
and as pain is just for a while
—death is a point of no returnSo what was I supposed to feel
when I spent my life believing
that there are good things
meant for me?
Upon wishing for the
same thing over and over
—what was I supposed to be
when the world has been asunder?I wished to know
—which promise of death
and the temporariness of it all
should I keep holding on to
Do you know now—how I kept
speaking as though someone
was listening all along?
It's because I don't know
—what was I supposed to feel
when I've lived but all this time
I've been breaking?
YOU ARE READING
an adjournment of scars, an endearment of stitches
Poetry❝𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘧𝘢𝘳 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘸𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘥𝘨𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘴, 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘭𝘵𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘴 𝘢�...