Listen Boy, My PERSLABSTORI (COMPLETED)

PERSLABSTORI 55

"Before I sing this song. I want to tell you a story. I want to open myself to all of our fans in this venue and to all of our fans all over the world because I think that's what you deserve..", huminto muna si Xhia sa pagsasalita at parang humugot ng lakas ng loob para magpatuloy,

Andito ako sa waiting room, well that's her solo stage so I supposed to be here. Nanunuod ako sa big monitor dito sa room habang inaayos ng stylist ang buhok ko,

Nakasuot lang ako ng oversized shirt na nagmukha ng bestida sakin dahil sa sobrang haba, hindi na rin halata ang cycling short na suot ko. Eto muna ang ipinasuot sakin para madaling magbihis pag solo stage ko na.

"3 yrs ago, I came to Seoul with nothing but my luggage and my determination to become an idol. That's my dream. Lucky enough, I was being selected as one of the backup dancers of a very famous kpop boy group. My dream becomes into reality. Happiness is underrated word if I'm going to use that word to express how I feel that day. However, God will break you sometimes to test how strong you are. My dream comes to an end..", natigil siya sa pagsasalita at natawa pa ng mahina nung tumulo ang niya saka pasimple iyong pinunasan.

Sa kwento niya ay parang bumibigat  na din ang dibdib ko.

"b-because I fell in love...", yumuko siya at mga 2 minutes na natahimik kaya reaksyon lang ng audience ang maririnig,

Halos lahat ay nadadala sa kwento niya, maging ako ay pinangingiliran na rin ng luha coz I know everything and I witnessed what she have been through.

"I fell in love with one of the most amazing men I've met in my life, I have loved him with all of my whole being, that's why I don't know how to pick myself up when he left me for another girl. I guess life is not all about pot of gold. We broke up, it's a mutual decision well, I don't know if it's a mutual decision since he was the one who suggested the break up. I just agreed because that's what he wanted. I just agreed because I know having a relationship with him will affect his career. One of us needs to sacrifice. And I think that's me because I don't have a reputation to protect to unlike him--his a famous artist.", pilit siyang ngumiti at nangingilid ang luhang tumingin sa audience, umikot ang isang camera at nakita kong karamihan sa audience ay nagpupunas na rin ng luha,

"Sometimes, I asked myself if I regret my decision of choosing him over my dream but I always find myself smiling bitterly..kasi kahit ganon ang nangyari samin, hindi ako nagsisisi na pinili ko siya kasi he's worth the pain. He's worth the sacrifice, he's worth it even if he chose to break my heart. If given a chance, kung totoo man na may time machine kung bibigyan ako ng pagkakataon na baguhin ang nakaraan, gagawin ko parin ang ginawa ko-- pipiliin ko parin siya kahit alam kong hindi ako ang pipiliin niya in return. Tonight, performing in this venue--in our second home is so surreal. It's like we're floating in the air. Seoul is a very memorable place to me..because in this place I experienced a lot of first times. It's my first time to live independently, away from my family. It's my first time to achieved one of my dreams and also..my first heartbreak". Mapakla siyang ngumiti at muling pinunasan ang luha niya,

"Awwwwwwww", tanging iyun lang ang mamumutawing reaksyon sa audience,

"TO THE MAN WHO MADE ME WHO I AM TODAY..I WANT TO SAY THANK YOU. THANK YOU FOR BREAKING MY HEART. I THINK IF YOU DIDN'T BREAK UP WITH ME I WILL NOT BE THIS SUCCESSFUL. THANK YOU FOR TEACHING ME TO BE WISER, BRAVER AND FIERCER. BTS JIN, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR LOVING THE XHIA BEFORE BUT FOR NOW I CAN PROUDLY SAY THAT I'M LOVING THE UPDATED VERSION OF MYSELF." Shookt ako nung walang alinlangan niyang banggitin ang pangalan ni Jin and I know ganon din ang pagkabigla ng audience, well it's okay hindi naman yun maririnig ni Jin dahil wala naman siya dito.

Tho maikakalat yun sa social media once na may nagrecord, pero ano naman diba?

Napangiti ako because I'm so proud of Xhia, she deserves everything, lahat ng sacrifices namin ay finally nagbunga na, nakakatuwang hindi kami nagpatalo sa sakit na dinulot nila bagkus ay ginamit namin yon para mas maging matatag kami--