𝐀 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐒 | 𝒋𝒐𝒔𝒉𝒖𝒂 𝒃𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒕𝒕

𝟎𝟏𝟒. 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅

Olivia's POV

𝐈 𝐖𝐀𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐃 𝐂𝐇𝐋𝐎𝐄 𝐏𝐀𝐂𝐄 away, wondering if I should try and talk to her again. She told me to go for it? I knew she said it with distaste as Josh just rejected her and it had me thrown off-base. They seemed to like each other so much, however they also seemed to cause each other a lot of pain. Neither of them knew what they wanted therefore they felt the best was just to move on. Maybe it was my chance?

We promised we wouldn't let Josh create a wedge between us, but if that was the last chapter of their story - what was I supposed to do? I pondered this as I slowly re-entered the trailer and all the girls stopped whispering to face me.

"How did that go?" Sofia asked, everyone seemed equally desperate to know. I slumped onto the couch and played with my hair.

"She told me to uh - 'go for it'" I said whilst making quotation marks with my hands. A lot of the girls raised their eyebrows and there was some more whispering.

"Wow she must be truly cut, to say that" Dara countered and my laugh was so weird it was followed by dead air. Everyone in this trailer knew I had a crush on him, but no one was telling me to go for it.

"So...should I? Like not now obviously but do you actually think there's a chance?" I asked to the group. Again, I was met with several stoic faces, and a couple of sympathetic ones. I already knew what the answer was deep down, but I just needed to hear it.

"Sweetie I'm gonna be honest with you, those two go so far back and it's clear that they have a lot that they haven't dealt with yet. I kinda feel like that's hard to compete with" Dara began and I nodded along solemnly.

"Buut Dee, maybe the reason Josh rejected her was because he wants to move on with someone new, a fresh relationship - or crush at least" Sofia argued and I looked up at her with hopeful yet sad eyes.

"Yeah but wouldn't he have done that by now then? Me, Frankie and Dee heard them, they were in love and I think that still might be there" Julia spoke back. The girls then sat there shocked for a few moments.
They were in love.

"Love, I guess that is hard to compete with" I mumbled.

"But he needed some like closure or something from her right? That's what Matty told me. So maybe now that he's got it, he can look to new things..." Sofia countered. Sofia was my closest girlfriend on set and I at least appreciated that she was trying to make this work for me.

"That's true...and Josh always has so much fun with you when you're around - like before she came here - I mean he may have an inkling that you proper like him but you guys haven't actually talked about it I'm guessing?" Dee then spoke up. Everyone then turned to me with questioning eyes and my mouth parted slightly.

"No, we haven't actually talked about it. It started off as just a small crush and now with her here, even though I love Chloe I just felt a bit overwhelmed with these stupid feelings. But even just now - I was still trying to help her and when we talked before, I disagreed when she said he should like me. I think I said all those things 'cause even I know...it's not gonna be a thing" I ranted. Sofia then scooted closer to me and rubbed my back.

"You know instead of all of us having this session and deciding how Josh feels, maybe you actually should talk to him Livy. I can't imagine he's having fun with this either and you guys are so close, maybe you can find out all the answers for real" Dara suggested and there was a chorus of agreement.

She was right. I was holding onto our moments with an invisible string before Chloe came back into his life: us writing a song for Episode 9, movie/game nights, table reads. Honestly, we were friends in my head at that time, I couldn't even pinpoint the moment that complicated things. He and I had already talked about how dating co-stars was a bad idea, also our age difference. It already went down south with me and Ethan, even though we maintained a friendship but that was lucky. I wouldn't want anything to jeopardise Josh and I's friendship. I just needed to know.