𝑗𝑗 𝑚𝑎𝑦𝑏𝑎𝑛𝑘 | 𝑖𝑚𝑎𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑒𝑠

• Calming kisses

trigger warning: involves self harm

Currently I was laying on my bed staring at the ceiling. I haven't seen my boyfriend in like a week. I've been depressed. Why? Because Rafe won't stop harassing me and saying shit that makes me not good enough.

No one knew what I was going through. I didn't want to tell anyone. So how did I let it out? By cutting every time Rafe would do something. I deserved it. I haven't cut for a little while because I haven't went out of the house. I look down at my arms and see the scars. They were healing but they were still noticeable. I don't know where JJ my boyfriend has been. Did I do something wrong? It's always my fucking fault.

Now I was bawling my eyes out. It got so bad my eyes were bloodshot and I felt sick. I then see my older brother Alex came running to my side. "Hey, hey what's wrong?" He asks hugging me. "I'm sick... i'm sick of being harassed by fucking Rafe and being told how worthless and shit I am." I say sobbing. "None of that is true okay? Remember that." He says rubbing my back. "I wanna die." I blurt out still having tears sting my eyes. "Don't say that Y/n ever again. No." He says looking at me. I just shake my head.

"I want JJ." I say. "I'll try to find him okay? Just don't do anything stupid!" He says and I nod as he leaves the room.

It's been at least an hour since my brother left and I was still in my room under my blankets crying. Over and over again. I even caused myself to throw up. I just couldn't stop. But then all of a sudden my door opens and I see JJ and start crying more as he runs over and hugs me. "I'm so sorry. I got caught up with my dad and shit. I'm sorry for not being here. I swear to god i'm going to beat Rafes face in." He tells me. I just cry even more.

"I'm not going to leave you ever again okay? I'm here and it's okay. Your perfect to me. I love you so much. You are literally everything to me." He tells me kissing the top of my head. "I- I" I try to talk but I just break down. He then puts my head near his chest. "Hey you hear my heartbeat? Focus on that okay. Breathe." He says and that exactly what I do any it calms me down.

He then looks at me and he places a kiss on my temple. Then a kiss on my lips making me feel better. "Your okay." He says. Then he tries to hold my hand and accidentally touches my wrist. "Y/n.." He says grabbing my arm. He felt them. "Baby no.." JJ says tearing up. "I'm sorry.." I say. He just shakes his head and starts to leave tiny kisses on my cuts. "Don't do that ever again. Call me or even come over but i'm staying with you no matter what i'm not leaving you and your not gonna lose me." He says holding my hand and kissing the back of it.

I then kiss him and hug him. "I love you JJ." I say. "I love you even more baby." He says.

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