signed anonymous

Bothness and Boldness

I woke the next morning in my bed. I had clearly been tucked in. But then I noticed I had been changed into pajamas. Instantly I was scared had daddy found out. So I called Crashers. "Who changed my clothes and did anyone find out about my secret?" I was worried and had jumped out of bed in a panic started pacing.

"Calm sir. Crashers made clothes change trunk still in pocket. Master be laying you in bed." He soothed taking my hand and leading me to the little table. Neither of us noticed tom in the doorway. "Master has not found out about your bothness I have kept promise. Only if master ask directly will I say. He did find out that your keeping all clothes in trunk though." Crashers bugged me to get me to sit. Snapping his fingers a tea service appeared. I sighed in relief. Till I turned to thank him and saw daddy starring at us.

"Bothness? What exactly is your bothness Harry" daddy asked calmly but I could see he hadn't slept and was getting angry fast. Tears welled up in my eyes and I opened my mouth but nothing came out. I sat there open and closing my mouth. His eyes turned to Crashers. "Tell me now." He growled at him.

"I'm sorry sir." He said patting the back of my hand holding it and not letting go. "Sir is neither a boy or a girl master. Sir is both." Crashers picked up a napkin and was dabbing at my eyes. "Don't cry sir. It will be okay. He won't turn away from you for this. Master won't call you those names either." He was quickly trying to get me to calm down. Suddenly a piece of chocolate was shoved in my mouth. I was looking at daddy he seemed baffled.

Then daddy came over tapping Crashers shoulder. When Crashers moved aside. Daddy reached for me and I ducked covering my head. When I felt daddy hands gently prying my hands away I started to shake. "Shhhh it's okay baby come here. Come see daddy. It's okay I'm not mad hunny." He coaxed as he managed to get me to raise my head. "Come here baby I think you need a hug." I was scared but let him lift me up. As he held me close he sat down and situated me so I was facing the tea service. "I'm sorry I upset you this early Harry. Drink some tea it'll help." I took my cup and took a little sip. "Harry just know that I'm here okay. No matter what. The only thing I was upset about just now was that you were keeping something from me. You wanted me as your daddy. And I basically am now so I need to know things to better protect you." He hugged me tightly from behind.

I took a few moments to let that sink in. "Okay daddy. I'll try to tell you more." He took a tea cup for himself sipping on it and holding me tightly to him. "I wear something I call a flatener. It keeps people for noticing my boobies." I shared nervously. He set his tea down and made a gesture for me to continue. "I don't have much of a chest but I have a bit of one. So I pretty much always wear it. Except when I seal the room and wear my girly things." There he held up a finger. Signaling me that he had a question.

"Girly things? When did you get girly clothes. Not that it's bad just curious." He added fast as I had tensed up.

"Uncle got them for me at first. He just thinks I like wearing girl stuff he doesn't know I have girl bits too." I told him honestly hoping he wouldn't get mad at uncle. "I really like my girly clothes but I also like being a boy. When I still lived with them I was punished for being as I am. They would call me mean names. And they would hurt me. Because what isn't normal needs to be punished until it becomes normal." I said it all quickly turning I hugged him. "I'm sorry I thought you were going to hit me before daddy. Mommy knows what I am. I had to tell her last month."

"Had to tell her? And why did mommy get to know first you brat. How am I going to brag if you tell her everything first." He rolled his eyes at me and tickled me a little bit.

"Because I needed mommy's help. Mommy says I am a late bloomer. I don't know what that means though." I frowned in contemplation. But daddy's eyes went wide. So he must have known what it meant. "What's it mean daddy? I know you know. I saw it in your eyes daddy."