Malec one shots

HEAVEN

The truth runs wild
Like a tear down a cheek

I didn't really notice he was gone until Madzie started acting different.

Trying to save face, and daddy heart break
I'm lying through my teeth

It was like a piece of her was missing. She wasn't as happy and she barely used magic for anything anymore.

This voice inside
Has been eating at me

And she doesn't say it but we both think that we've could've done something to save him, we could've found something.

Trying to replace the love that I fake
With what we both need

I try to stay positive for her sake, but it's hard. Especially every night when I lay in bed and see his empty side right next to mine.

The truth runs wild
Like kids on concrete

And I sometimes look through his old office papers to see every picture that Madzie has ever drew him. I show her, she smiles.

Trying to sedate, my mind in its cage
And numb what I see

Even though he's not here, I sometimes feel like he's right next to me. Telling me not to cry

Awake, wide eyed
I'm screaming at me

When I fall asleep I dream of him and our happy life together, but every time it ends with me killing him.

Trying to keep faith and picture his face
Staring up at me

And when I sit up, sweat dripping from my face, I realize he's not there to comfort me.

Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?

Sometimes I wish I weren't immortal so I could spend all of my time with him instead of wishing he was here.

All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh

But it's been so many years and so many romances that I can't just give up my life now. Even if it hurts to live on without Alexander.

So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?

At least now I have a piece of him with me and that's the wonderful daughter that we raised together.