Elemental

Chapter 16: Leave Me Alone

I sit at the piano and start to cry. I don't know why. It's probably because of this stupid pain I'm experiencing or maybe because I thought he liked me and maybe I had a chance, or that everyone around me kept telling me he liked me and put things into my head and now I just feel stupid like I was played. Deep down though I always knew Jessie was right I did like him, or I do, I don't know anymore but I guess Bridget wins. She was right. She always wins. Some may think I'm overreacting but I'm not. My body feels like it is breaking down while at the same time it feels like my friends somehow stabbed me in the back and betrayed me by telling me lies when clearly he loves Bridget. The pain is subsiding and now it burns. And not in a good way, but in an angry way. I guess what I felt for him was one sided. Or maybe the connection was nothing and just my mind playing tricks. It's only been four days and I've already fallen for the kid like we've known each other for years. It's hard because I don't let people in. I'm the one who builds up walls and keep them out and he was the first person to break them down the minute I saw him and now he's the one building them back up stronger and bigger. I should have never opened my heart up again. Last time I did it caused me to break down and push everyone away and now I might be doing that again. Why does it seem like my life is just one big shit show.

I can hear voices in the hall, but I don't care, I start to play my emotions out on the piano and it feels good. Feels like it's just me, the piano and the music, the only things I can ever rely on being there for me.

Jackson

I watch her walk away. I keep telling myself to just admit my feelings, but I don't think she feels that way with how she gets mad at Jessie for telling us to date. But then when we dance, and sing or when we're alone I feel like she feels the same. This feeling I get on my chest. I don't know what it is because there's nothing there. Maybe it's something on the inside. It might just be me, but when I look at her time seems to stop. With her I feel like I can knock down all of my walls. At that moment Bridget comes up to me and has this grin on her face. Before I'm able to say anything she speaks first,

"So I want to use my time wisely, the girls will work with the guys so let's start dancing, at one point in the dance I want you to grab my hips and spin me around, can you do that?"

"Yeah, but let's slow down and-"

"Then let's do it." She doesn't give me time to process anything.

"Bridget It's easy and-"

"Then let's do it if it's so easy." Not wanting to argue I grab her hips and spin her around and she put her hands on my shoulders. She then looks at me at comes close and kisses me. I don't have time to process what is happening before I pull away and hear a door slam, and the stopping of feet getting closer.

I pull away more and yell at her once I'm able to process it all, "What the hell was that Bridget!"

"Oh come on Jackson I know the feelings are still there just admit it."

"No there's nothing there Bridget so just give it up."

"Whatever, it doesn't matter anyway I got what I wanted so..."

"What are you talking about?" Everything right now is so confusing, what did she mean by she got what she wanted? And why the hell does it feel like I was just punched in the chest? No not even just a regular punch. A punch that makes you feel like you just broke your ribs.

"Let me at the bitch Brandon before I hurt you!" I turn around to see Brandon and Kevin holding Jessie and Kennedy back.

"What the hell is going on!" Nothing makes sense right now. And it's really hard to concentrate and even breathe slightly because of the pain.