Wrong lies -M.R, D.M, T.N

27- Bathroom talks

"You drew stars around my scars, but now I'm bleeding."

D A I S Y

He stares at me from the other side of the classroom like he can see right through me. His gaze ignites my soul, and I'm on fire. My phone lit up, but it was too risky to answer. They are all in here. Draco, Theo and him. Mattheo knows about me, and even though he hasn't told the boys yet and I have continued to text them, I'm terrified. He can ruin me. He has the power. I look around, noticing how everyone in the class is on their phones since our professor is sick. I pick it up, noticing how they are talking about me again, not sunny, but Daisy. I sigh, looking over at Mattheo, who is already staring at me.

I look back down at my phone, beginning to text back. Mattheos eyes stare at me as I send them one last message. I messed up, but I couldn't keep it back. They know... they know the truth about me now.

I look up, facing Mattheo, and he stares at me with sad and angry eyes. My phone lights up again. Not the group chat but him.

Mattheo
Meet me, girls' bathroom
10 min
Don't be late

I shake my head, hoping he is the only one who will see it. It lights up again. It doesn't take him long before he leaves the classroom, but no one pays attention. My heart begins to beat faster. Should I go? If I leave the classroom, someone will notice, and I will have to talk to him. I will have to tell him about my scars and past, and he will act like he cares. Maybe he does care. What do I know? But I still dont trust him. I think a part of me wants to trust him, and a part of me likes him. But then there is the trauma holding me back. I look over at the clock, fuck it. I leave my seat, not looking back, as I walk out of the classroom and over to the girls' bathroom. Here goes nothing.

"Show me," he stares at me with cold eyes. He is not even thanking me for showing up, even though he knows damn well this is the last thing I want to do.

"Not even a hello. Where is the respect riddle?" I roll my eyes, feeling more confident than I thought I would. I walk my way over to one of the sinks, staring into the mirror, and see him behind me. He only stares at me.

"Didn't you hear me?" He walks up to me and grabs my arm, and I flinch at his touch. The scars are old. They dont hurt anymore, but it's still a part that I'm scared of anyone touching. especially him since he made me do it.

"Fuck I didn't mean to hurt you." He takes a step back, looking down at my arm, and I hold them tight to my body.

"Well, you are acting kinda shitty right now." He stares at me with sad eyes. Looking like pure regret.

"I didn't mean it-fuck Dais. I'm worried, okay?" He walks around the bathroom, looking stressed, before he turns to me.

"Why did you do it? How can you be so stupid?" He cares... I try to tell myself, but it's not enough. How I could do it is a difficult answer. I can tell him it's because of him, but then I would lie. Sure he hurt me but in the end, it's Draco and my fathers. And my own. Because I hate myself.

"I dont do it anymore," I whisper, and he steps closer.

"Can I? I won't touch you. I just want to see it." I think I shouldn't let him get to me for a moment. But I roll up my sleeve, watching his gaze fall to my arms in shock.

"You did that... Because of me," he stares at it in shock, and my heart begins to beat faster. I'm panicking, not knowing what to say. Do I feel bad for him? Maybe, Should I? No.

"No, I did it before- I did it because of Draco and my- I did it before that night." He stares at me, confused like he doesn't understand.

"But how could I not see it? You were fucking naked, Dais." Dais, only my friends call me that. Draco called me that.

"You were drunk," the words slipped my mouth, sounding like he took advantage of me. He shakes his head.

"Not that drunk, I always know what I'm doing, and that is serious, Daisy. I dont fucking care if you hated me. I would have noticed scars on your body." I bite my lip. I dont like how he cares about me; it feels wrong.

"It was a mistake, all of it." He rolls his eyes and snorts as he turns towards me.

"Keep saying that, and I'll have to believe you're trying to convince yourself." I bite my lip. Because that's what I'm trying to do. We can't be together, not in any way.

"You should go back to class. They are going to wonder why we both left." He frowns, like what I said was pure bullshit. It wasn't?

"You think I give a fuck?" His voice and gaze are cold, and I take a few steps back from him, scared that hell might be mad at me. But his gaze changes, and he looks at me with regret. "I'm sorry, I'm only worried about you...." I nod slowly, and he sighs.

"Look, Dais, I dont want you to get hurt. I want to protect you," I look up at him, shaking my head.

"I dont need protection. I can handle myself, and I'm stronger than you think... A lot, actually," he nods slowly.

"You are strong, Dais, I know that. But one day, they will find out. I dont know how but they will. And that day, I'm going to be by your side. I promise you that." I nod slowly, and his gaze drops to my lips. It feels like the moment stops for a minute, and I catch myself stopping breathing.

"We should uhm- leave." He takes a step back, looking uncomfortable and scratches his neck.

"Uh yeah. Are you okay?" I nod slowly before leaving him alone in the bathroom before anyone can find us. When I left, I first understood how hard it was to breathe and how fast my heart beat around him. I Should stay away. I know that. But it's hard...

M A T T H EO
She leaves the bathroom quickly, and I only stare at the door. She hurt herself, not just one time but a lot. And god, I have a terrible feeling the scars aren't the only way she hurt herself. There is something about her, and I want to help her get better. It's the least I can do after everything. I hurt her badly, and I dont think I can forgive myself until she gets better. She flinched every time I touched her, and god damn, it pained me.

I wish I could go through her head and see what she thinks around me. Am I the villain inside her head? Is there a chance of her forgiving me? I dont know, but I won't give up until she gives me a chance to let me help her. It was the first time I felt like I needed to hug someone, but she didn't want me to touch her, so I didn't. I take a deep breath before leaving the bathroom and returning to my dorm. It's better if people think I skipped class instead of walking back like Daisy did. At least then they won't understand we were with each other. It's better for her...

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Theo - Mattheo

Theo
hey mate
Where are you?
You just left class
For a moment I thought u fucked someone
And then daisy left
GABAHAH
you should've seen Draco's face
But she came back
Are you ok?
❤️
Sorry if I'm spamming
I'm worried

Mattheo
hey bro I'm fine
I didn't fuck anyone
Especially not daisy
I had a headache and class was useless

Theo
Oh ok
Feeling better now?
I can bring you dinner:)

Mattheo
it's ok
Not rly hungry

Theo
ahh don't say that
I'll bring u pancakes
No wait
U don't like them
....
How can you don't like pancakes?
Who dropped u as a child?
Oh
Wait...
Nvm
Sorry
Want some chicken?

Mattheo
No thx

Theo
Did I upset you?

Mattheo
aw no Theo
I'm sorry
Just rly tired

Theo
okay
but food is important

Mattheo
I know
I'll drop by

Theo
Ok that's good
We'll wait for you!

Mattheo
Thx mate

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