Emison: Promises

Chapter 12: Great Expectations

* the song above is Save Me by Leela James! I hope you guys enjoy it!!!  

oh and i thought the gif after was appropriate! haha

this chapter  is dedicated to sarahmichael1234 and LovelynManagbanag because they're always commenting or voting and they brighten my day! Thanks guys 

dw LovelynManagbanag i'll put dedication up for you in the chapter next time... stupid wattled only lets you do one person at a time!*

Alison's POV

No one. She isn't here. That hurt me so much. I know that was this was the spot she came to when she needed a break. Numerous times had I watched her as she sat there for countless hours crying, talking to herself, blaming herself for my disappearance. How it just broke my heart to see her like this and know that I couldn't do anything about it. I hated it. Watching the person you love cry for you and because of you is a thing I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy... That includes everyone who was A at one point or another.

So I sit on the rock. Remembering that day we spent by the lake at a party before I went missing.

*Flashback*

'' People have been sneaking off to the kissing rock for hundreds of years.'' I say smiling softly at her

'' You're making that up'' She answers looking away. Gosh, she is so pretty. No! Ali, you're straight ,you like guys! You're just saying that because she's your best friend and that's it! It's normal for people to think their best friend is good looking right?

'' Just because I make it up doesn't mean it's not true.'' I can't tear my eyes off of her. '' You go there with somebody and you can feel the ghosts of the other lovers spying on you.'' She turns her heard to me at the mention of the word 'lovers'. Her eyes are magnificent, I stare into them as I say '' You know you should never disappoint a ghost'' I smirk

She looks at me for a second, unsure of what to say. '' It's just a dusty old rock'' she tries as casually as possible but I know she's hooked on every word I am saying.

'' Who do you want to take there?'' I say cockily, I know she has a secret crush on me, although it's not much of a secret to me. She stares into me and shrugs lightly. I know she just doesn't want to say it. I see from the glint in her eyes that she would like to take me. And it makes me so warm and fuzzy inside. No. It's no right. I don't like a girl! I like guys, I mean I've been with loads of them too. But she has an effect on me. But I can't like a girl, especially not my best friend. It's just not right.

*End of flashback*

I loved her so much. I can't believe I denied it. I feel so stupid. I shouldn't have played her.

'' I'm sorry Emily.'' I was yelling at our spot again. I was letting my feelings out, venting... It helps, talking about her out loud in our special space. I'd being doing that pretty much every day for the past two weeks. It was like my own private therapy session ''I'm an idiot. I'm a bitch for how I played you. Your feelings were far from one-sided. I loved you so much. I love you so much. I was so stupid. I am so stupid. I love you so much it hurts. I can't believe I let you go through all this crap because of me'' Tears were now streaming down my face, causing the makeup I'd re-applied in the car earlier to fall down again. ''I love Emily Catherine Fields and if anyone isn't okay with that than you can go fuck yourself!'' I screamed at the lake in front of me '' Fuck! I've ruined it! The most perfect girl in the world wanted me and I wanted her and because I was such a conceited, arrogant, bitchy slut I pushed her away! How dumb do you have to be!'' This was more to myself but I wanted to address one person right now, I felt like somehow this would make it easier for the both of us