Mind of Steel | Part two | L.N.

LXXXII

Lando had woken up earlier the next morning to take Petra and Max to the airport for their flight. He was going to wake up Leah as well, but Petra insisted that he let her sleep. He didn't even say goodbye, he just left. After he dropped the other two off at the airport he drove back to the house. Leah was still in bed asleep. He was going to wait until she had woken up on her own, but he couldn't wait any longer. He had been sitting in the living room, but she wouldn't didn't wake up for the next hour and a half. Lando had finally started pacing at the foot of their bed.

"Leah, baby, you've gotta wake up and tell me, I need to know what I did or what I need to do to make you feel better," Lando finally spoke out loud. Leah slowly sat up. She had been awake the moment Lando left the house she just didn't want to get out of bed. She didn't want to go forward with the day. She didn't want to have to tell him.

"You didn't do anything Lando," Leah sighed as she brought her knees to her chest. She was just in his hoodie and her underwear.

"Can I please know now, I've been giving you space hoping that maybe you would tell me on your own, but then you didn't and then it just got worse, but Leah," Lando rambled while he paced at the foot of her bed. All Leah could think about was the fact that he still had his messy bed hair that she always thought was so cute. "Why are you smiling right now?" He paused and stared at her. She shook her head as she moved to get up off the bed.

"I don't want to tell you, Lando," She rested her head in her hands as Lando came to the edge as knelt in front of her.

"Please, you are killing me," Lando begged. Leah dropped her hands and looked at him. She was upset with herself more than anything.

"Lando I can't have kids," Leah whispered. The words were so quiet Lando thought he may have heard her wrong at first. His face turned from worried, to confused quickly as he pieced together her emotions.

"Wait what? How do you know?" Lando at on his heels as he stared up at her. Leah gave him a small smile as she ran her finger through his hair, but he grabbed her hands and pulled them away from his face. "Leah." He pleaded. She didn't want to have this conversation. She didn't want any of this to end, even if the two of them have been distant for a while. Her mostly.

"A few weeks ago, I was late on my period, I didn't think anything of it because most of the time I am and it's fine. I was right and about two weeks after I had my period again, but it was different," Lando stared at her. That was when she would lay in bed for a while and her body would hurt to where she couldn't move. Leah had thought it was just an intense period. "So I went to the doctor and they gave me test results and an answer to what actually happened."

"Leah?" Lando whispered as she looked at her hands.

"I was pregnant," Leah muttered as she played with the ring on her hand and tugged it off. Lando let out a breath as he covered his mouth. "I miscarried about six or seven weeks in." Leah placed the ring in the plan of her hand. She promised herself she wouldn't cry anymore. So she wouldn't. "I have an insufficient cervix which means that I will not be able to carry a baby to full term. I can't have kids. We can't have kids." Leah smiled down at her ring. Lando was still trying to wrap his head around the fact that they had a baby in the first place and it was gone. Just like that.

"There are other options though, I know you can't carry to term, but Leah there are other options," Lando explained as he took her other hand, but her hand was completely relaxed as he tried to intertwine their hands.

"Yes, but Lando I know how much you wanted to be the father, it wouldn't be the same, you know that," Leah reasoned as she looked up at the ceiling for a moment as she took a deep breath.