We're always so close yet so far.
This could count for so many people that I miss,
or that i once knew as well as i know myself,
or thought i did at least,
to be fair i don't know myself very well.
Living in the same state should mean it's easier to plan to see you,
but this state is too big for me to just say "let me go see you today"
both the literal state but also the emotional state i always find myself in.
i'm torn between missing spontaneity and needing a schedule to survive,
you helped me balance that with how you would go anywhere at any time,
seeing you at 3 am wasnt a difficult thing to ask for,
the harassment from my mom was worth seeing you until the sun came up.
you really were so sweet and present,
for me,
for my,
or our,
friends.
i know you always mentioned you'd disappear now and then, or at some point,
but knowing you're a drive away,
albeit a long one,
makes me so restless.
i constantly crave jumping in a car all alone and just driving to you,
not for any reason except to see my friend,
and have your smile make me forget all my problems.
i know i can see you in pictures,
but that'll never be the same,
please come home soon,
or i'll just have to leave home to go find you.
