What is healing?
And how am I supposed do it?
It seems like it's one of those things where there is no right or wrong,
But if that were true then I would be healed by now, right?
So there must be something imm doing wrong,
Or something im not doing at all,
To be trapped in a cycle where all I want is to be better but don't know how.
The help I try to receive, I search for, beg for, can only do so much.
People listen to me and agree with me so I know im not crazy,
Well not any more than the usual,
So what is it that I should be.
I was recently told I could never be happy until I was healed,
And i know that happiness is something everyone deserves and should have,
So why do I have to work so hard for it.
I'm a hard worker, ive always been.
There's no to do list or structure for me to follow so I feel like im on my own.
I dont like being on my own.
I miss being something more than broken,
Even if I never was complete
