Maybe if i let go,
I could start my own life with no mention of you.
Maybe that's why i still hold on.
Im unsure if whatever feelings i hold towards you are actually real-
Its been eternity since we've shared enough of ourselves for me to think i still...
And yet i hold on to the thought,
The emotions,
A memory.
If i truly let go,
Then all you would become is a memory.
I had the chance to let that happen and yet i refused-
There was a point in time we tried to walk out of each others lives and it felt as though all life was being drained out of me,
You eventually came back too.
I wonder if i hold on now to not relive those times,
Or to make sure they don't happen again,
I don' become who i was then.
I don't know who she was.
There are people in my life who never met you but still know some of who you are because of what i choose to share,
And recently i've only shared the sweet things,
The jokes,
Our love.
I'm not sure what i would do if i had to live a life with no mention of you-
This isn't to say i need you by my side, every moment, of every day.
I just wonder if what i feel is still true,
Or if i'm worried of who i would be without you.
