The last time I had seen you truly felt like the happiest we had been in each others company for so long.
The look in your eyes was one I hadn't seen in years,
I felt 17 again.
If I hadn't been wearing so much makeup you would've been able to see just how much you made me blush-
Your jokes,
Your smile,
Your eyes,
The way you made me forget everything we had been through.
I wasn't happy to be saying goodbye-
But I was there for hours just to be able to spend time with you-because you asked me to go,
Twice if I remember correctly.
It was the end of an era-
All the days I spent passing by and seeing your car,
Stopping by and seeing you,
To then taking different routes to avoid knowing you were so close to me.
I saw you again the other day, truly by accident.
I spotted you by pure coincidence-
Had I known you'd be there I would've done my hair just how you like it,
You pointed it out one day- your birthday maybe?
I pretended to not know but of course I do-
I was a mess,
But there you were,
Your eyes,
Your smile,
We spoke for maybe 10 minutes and I got a real glimpse of your life outside of the bubble we had made for ourselves.
Now im overthinking every moment and every word-
Replaying It in my mind as if there was some hidden meaning to anything and everything?
I'm so sorry
But I wish I hadn't seen you
