The last time I saw you was only 4 months ago yet it feels like years.
"It took a pandemic for you two to speak again"
You left as soon as you came, I knew it wouldn't last but it hurt all the same.
Why come back at all?
Why tell me you expected me to stop by when you know how I get when it comes to you?
Here I was waiting for a goodbye, yet this was nothing new.
You found something more to your liking and picked up your things and left yet again
I couldn't stop you the first time, or any time after
Although this time was less of a disaster, I still had the thought
"Why not me?"
Even after all the push and pull of your tides that left me drowning as if there was a weight tied to my ankles with your initials engraved,
I still wanted to be enough for you.
You were always enough for me.
So please come back soon, even if just for some time,
I know you'll never be, but I could close my eyes and pretend you're mine.
But just like your push and pull took my breath away,
none of my efforts were enough to make you stay.
12/07/2020
