My (endless) Year

someone

i need someone to hold me like they truly love me-
see me and want me in a way no one else has before.
hold me to make sure i'm protected and safe,
love me so i know what it's like,
keep a promise so i have someone-
anyone,
to believe in.
all these books are read feel like fantasies,
but i can see it happening to people around me.
they're falling for something and i'm willing to take a hit just to say i fell too.
maybe not like them.
but i tried.
i feel like i always tried.