Could you tell me how to be better?
I promise I'll work hard and do my best.
It seems that my best is never good enough, so how?
How can I be better?
Im exhausted of being a filler, someone temporary, the person you have that helps you decide you do want to be with someone,
But that someone is never me.
"I don't chase, I attract, what belongs to me will simply find me"
So is it pain?
Is it pain that belongs to me and never wants to leave?
Even on the brightest of moments I can catch the slightest glimpse of pain reflecting off the memory
Reminding me that they are always there,
The only one that would never leave me.
The only one that will find me regardless of where I might be or who I might be with.
Pain can be comforting after some time,
When it's all you know it becomes the one thing you know you can always turn to.
I always heard that a human can bite their finger off like a carrot,
But our brains tell us not to.
Im not sure if that's true,
If it is,
Then how can I drown myself in pain?
And why can't I make it stop?
