Take me back to middle school,
I have this group of friends,
They are so cool,
I wish my bond won't end.I take my friends for granted,
Rather than treat them correctly,
I bully them for fun,
Passing it off as a joke.They tolerate my behavior,
Even give me countless chances
To be their friend,
But I continuously hurt them.At times, I think about changing
My ways, but I'm too shy to express
Such desires, causing
Them to think I'm nowhere near the best
Person to hang out with.I have this tendency to play rough,
When they say enough,
I don't listen,
Not thinking my welcome
To the group could wear out.I try to change my ways,
Try to soften
Up on my rough behavior,
But it just so happens
That I am addicted.Once, I explain to them
That all I want is to have fun
With them, but they threaten
Abandonment if I keep misbehaving.Only when I lose my friends
Do I realize the impact of my actions,
Making me wish I could go back
In time to make corrections
For all of my transgressions.They were generous,
Far more than most
People, but I went too far,
And now I suffer this lost.Years has passed,
Now it's the present day,
And still regret stays
With me, made worse whenever
I reflect upon the past.It may be too late,
Too late to say sorry
And be friends again,
But I am sorry for all of my deeds,
I never wanted this to end this way.
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