Trouble For Me

Chapter 41

I grabbed the keys away from Freddie.

"Diane let's go inside.." Freddie said

"No." I said

"No? Why not? These people are crazy" he said

"We said that we're going out today! And that's what we'll do!" I said

"Aren't you scared?" John asked

"They can go suck a dick!" I said "I'm not going to be scared of these people my whole life!" I said

They guys agreed and we followed our plans. We went at a restaurant nearby. We ordered food and we sat at a table. We were all quite until Roger decided to break the silence.

"Are you really a lesbian?" He asked

Freddie obviously kicked him under the table.

"Don't ask these kind of questions!" Freddie said

"Sorry Diane..." Roger said

"No, it's fine.. I'm not a lesbian but I'm bisexual" I said "And I really hope that didn't just change your opinion about me..and I hope it's not too weird for you guys.." I said

An awkward silence filled the room.

"Alright.. I got it...excuse me.." I said and I walked to the restroom

I closed the door and put my back against it. Tears started rolling down on my cheeks. The thought of finally meeting people who would understand, completely vanished from my mind and was replaced with the thought that they'll cut me off.

I heard a knock on the door "Diane are you okay?" John asked

I tried to hide my crying voice.

"Yes.. I'll be right out in a minute..." I said as my voice cracked and more tears followed

He opened the door and walked in "Don't lie to me. Are you crying for what happened out there?" He asked

"Look, I'm sorry if I made all of you uncomfortable but that's who I am. It's not a secret and I honestly expected a positive reaction.." I said

"Diane..we really don't base our opinions on someone by their sexuality, we're okay with it! Our reaction wasn't the best, but that will never change our opinion on you, you are who you are, you shouldn't care about what these wankers think of you in the neighborhood" he said

"I don't know what to say.." I said

"You don't have to say anything, we'll always have your back." He said and he hugged me

We walked back to our table, the food was already there. I sat next to Freddie and didn't even try to start a conversation.

They were chit-chatting about the album and I just kept eating and minding my own business. I looked up and I immediately made eye contact with Brian. He smiled at me and I felt something in my stomach, it was like a hundred butterflies were flying in there. I've never felt that before. I smiled back at him before I was interrupted by Freddie. He pulled me closer to him and kissed my cheek and then whispered in my ear:

"Some paparazzi are out there, be cool."

I nodded and I looked back at Brian who looked at me and then back at his food with a face full of disappointment.

I felt bad for doing this already. Now I was feeling bad because I know that Brian kinda likes me and it must makes him feel sad.