Trouble For Me

Chapter 51

"I don't understand..you wanted us to break up, and now you're telling me this?" He said with a confused look on his face

"I know I did! But I didn't choose to fall in love with you, it just happened!" I replied

"W-what?" He stuttered

"You heard me!" I said

He looked away "You really broke my heart, don't expect me to just come back to you" he said

"I never did expect you to do anything, it is my fault too, but it's not only my fault! If you weren't so jealous I would never end things. You said some hurtful things while we were together" I said

"I know..and I'm sorry, I should had trusted you." He said "But I don't want to go through that again.. getting over you was one of the hardest things I ever had to do.." he said

"So, what does that mean?" I asked while holding back tears

"I just need you to be my friend and for me to be your friend. Just friends.." he said

"Your wish is my command.." I said as my voice cracked

"Please don't cry" He begged

"Just give me a second, I'll be right back" I excused myself and run in the bathroom.

I closed the door and burst into tears. I wish I could stop but I just couldn't. My feelings were a total mess. I messed up my relationship with both Clarissa and Brian and honestly I deserve what I get now.

I wiped my tears, took a few deep breaths and headed back in the living room where I found Brian. I felt so embarrassed for having a breakdown with him around.

"How are you feeling?" He asked

"Okay.. I'm feeling okay.." I replied

"Can I ask you something?" He asked

"Sure.." I replied and sat on the couch

"Did you really have feelings for Freddie?" He asked "And please be honest with me" he said

"In total honesty..yes I did, only for the time I was "dating" him..but not anymore. And I would really appreciate it if you didn't overthink it." I said

"Freddie told me that he did have feelings for you a while ago, I didn't believe it until you told me you had feelings too..and that's exactly why I want us to just be friends" he said

"I completely understand.. I'm so sorry, that must have been so hard for you to hear..but you should know that there's nothing going on and there was never anything going on!" I said

He didn't say anything, he just sat next to me and gave me a really tight hug

"I should go.." he said as he let go of me

I nodded and walked him to the door, he hugged me one more time and this time I didn't want to let go. My arms were tied around his neck and refused to let him go. He didn't do anything to get away.

"I love you.." I mumbled

"I love you too" he replied

I finally pulled away from him and he walked out from my house "I'll call you!" He said as he was walking to his car

I nodded at him and closed the door, I grabbed my phone and called Joe and arranged a meet-up at my place. A couple of hours later both Joe and Carl showed up.

"What's this urgent get-together about?" Joe asked

"I believe you've read today's newspaper." I said