The Blind One

Chapter 6

This is slightly short and not very satisfying so I will try and upload another chapter for you all tomorrow. I hope you like it.

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Dear Diary,

Today is Wednesday.

After last nights, well, issue. I had stood where Mr bus ticket man left me for about five minutes before the cold literally chilled my bones, I then rushed back home to find that Mum was in bed, she wasn't sleeping, she merely laid in bed staring into space as she usually did some days. I had tried to get her attention by asking how her day was, I obviously got no response so after ten minutes of trying, I told her to rest well and that I would see her tomorrow. Well tomorrow is today, and today is Job hunting day. I hope it goes well.

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I sighed as I thought about what I had to do. Finding a job in the Uk can be tricky at times. And sometimes, in my case, most times, the employers can be unnecessarily rude. I got ready to go to job hunting by throwing on a black scater dress that I got when I was 15/16?. The same black tights that I wear all the time,with a pair of black pumps and a black blazer. I looked like I was very well prepared to go to a funeral. I grabbed a flat side bag that used to be mums when she worked. It's a brown leather satchel, still shiny and leather scented. I always had in the satchel; My CVs and any work related paperwork.

I got out of my room a few minutes after checking if I had everything useful for the job hunt. I decided to start with my local market where there was a lot of corner shops and so on. Last night, after having a very alien conversation with Mr bus ticket man, (whom I am very interested to get to know, yet do not want to involve myself with) I decided that, I continuously try to look for safety way too far from my comfort zone. I mean, working at the restaurant payed very well, but I was never meant to be there, but I guess that was a way for God to try and reach out to me and guide me until I could understand him. And now, I do. I understand that I will never associate myself with the rich world, and God will definitely give me strength, he will get me far in life.

So from now on, i am sticking to the local area, local jobs, until God says otherwise.because of all this, I am confident that today will go very well.

With a slow sigh, I finished up the last crumb of my bacon sandwich, picking up my small cup of tea I subconsciously blew at the water, which no Longer burned my hands nor was there any stream. I placed my lips on the edge and slowly drank the now Luke warm tea. Ignoring the temperature of the drink, I quickly gulped it down like water and then looked at my wrist watch. It was nearly ten o'clock, exactly ten fifty nine. Scraping the chair on the floor as I pushed it back with my legs, I went to the sink and placed my cup and plate,i washed them both and then rinsed off my hands before wiping them on my dress. I went to mums room to make sure that she was still sleeping and remembered that I had not put mums medication next to her tray of food by her bed. I walked in the room and went to the cupboard standing against the wall. I took out the tablets-making sure to give her a good enough doze- then set It next to her food. On the bed, mum stirred a little. I stood frozen and silent and waited. Mums eyes cracked open and she looked at me with confusion.

"Go back to sleep mum" I whispered "I'm just going out for a bit"

As if she actually listened to me, mums eyes closed and she snuggled back into her pillow.

Breathing out in relief, I smiled then leaned in to kiss my mums forehead. "See you soon" I whispered then walked out of the room.

'Now all I have to do is....be confident' I thought as I headed out in hope to find a new job.

I walked down to the local bus stop, I had some change left over in my travel card since I got a free ride last night. I walked down the road and about five minutes in the walk, my legs began to cramp. Despite how much I walk and run to places since I am always busy, my body never seems to respond to these exercises, and as a result, I am always behind when It comes to getting to places quickly. I slowed down a little as my legs began to burn, the muscles in my calfs tightened as though to tell me to stop, but I didn't,I needed to get to the bus stop in time or else I would miss my bus. I ignored the pain and instead took wide steps until I could see the bus stop.