The Harsh life

Chapter 54

Amara- now
"Hi mommy." Luca whispers as my eyes open.

Luca is about four years old, Gio must have put him into bed with me when he left to go to the gym.

I love waking up to our little baby every morning.

"Hi." I whisper back.

He looks very much like little Gio. All the photos Gio's mom showed me, this is very much all him.

Luca reaches out and places a hand on my stomach.

I look down to the bump as Luca starts talking to his baby sister.

I stroke Luca's hair as he talks to his sister.

The bedroom door opens and in walks Gio, fully dressed in his suit, even his hair is done.

"Breakfast time?" Gio asks.

"Got to go eat, see you soon." Luca says before standing up and jumping on our bed.

"What's for breakfast dad?" He asks as I slowly sit up.

"Pancakes? Or avocado?" Gio asks.

Gio always cooks for us. Always.

"Pancakes!!!" Luca exclaims and jumps on the bed so hard, before he can land Gio picks him up.

Gio carries Luca under his arm as he makes his way over to me and helps me out of bed.

"Good morning." He kisses me.

"Morning." I kiss him back.

He helps me downstairs and into the kitchen where he makes some pancakes for breakfast.

He serves up my breakfast and hugs me from behind as he does so.

"Amara!"

"Amara!"

I look around for the cause of the shouting.

No one is shouting.

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"Amara!" I shoot up to the sound of my name.

"Why are you sleeping it's the middle of the afternoon?!" Matteo asks with the uttermost concern.

I look around to see I'm in the living room asleep on the sofa with a blanket.

My dream wasn't real.

Gio and I aren't together anymore.

I don't have a son.

I'm not pregnant.

"I haven't been sleeping well." I say putting a hand to my stomach.

I feel so empty right now.

I was so in love and happy.

Now I'm in this big house all alone.

"What is it?" Matteo asks.

"Nothing." I lie sitting up.

I need to pee.

It's been 3 months since Christmas.

3 months since I last saw Gio.

I get into the bathroom and that's when I feel it.

I've just come on my period. Great.

I haven't had my period in years, I've always been on birth control since my abortion and that stopped them. Until I started trying with Gio but my body just wasn't having periods.