Illusion | Taekook ✔️

44. The Moment Of Truth

Jeon Jungkook

If you ask me how I took the news, well it wasn't hard at all. I knew to some extent that he had a rough past. If he doesn't choose to tell me this part, should I be mad at him? Maybe I should. It was my right to know as a life partner.

If I look from his perspective then, it wasn't my place to be mad at him for concealing something that doesn't concern my present or future. I saw the helplessness in his eyes when Namjoon kept on saying disgusting things. I knew Namjoon was telling the truth by the look of guilt on Taehyung's face.

However, he is my husband, I can't let anyone talk to him like that. Whatever happened in his past was his but in present and in future he is my responsibility. So, infront of everyone I pretended to know the truth. When in reality, it was revealed upon me in exact moment through Taehyung's guilty eyes.

I was angry at myself? Him? Or Namjoon? I didn't know. So, I took time to calm myself. I don't want to hurt him. After having a drink or two and driving aimlessly to calm down my anger, I made my way back to the mansion.

It was half past one, I opened the door, to find Taehyung sitting beside bed, burying face into his knees, hearing the door open he snapped his head in my direction.

His eyes were red and he was still crying bitterly. Seeing him like this broke my heart into million pieces. I can't imagine what kind of things he had been through to make it here. All I wanted right now was to embrace him closely. Talk can wait.

I sat beside him and pulled him towards me, hiding his face in the crook of my neck and holding onto him. He cried for a bit and pulled back.

"Why Taehyung, you could've trusted me completely?" this was all I could ask.

"I am sorry hyung. If you are mad at me then it is your right I deserve this. I should have told you but I didn't know it would lead us this far.... I..... Understand if you don't wanna see me. You probably hate me now. Just say the word I'll go." he sniffled.

"This isn't the answer to my question Taehyung."

"But you said.... That you know already... In the party." he was still sobbing.

"I said it to protect you from the hate people would throw at you, it was my duty to protect you."

He started crying again, he looked so broken. "I am a terrible person. It makes me feel more terrible now. I don't deserve you hyung. I am so ashamed."

"I am not ashamed of whatever you were Taehyung. In my eyes you are still my husband and the man I love. I'd still walk with you with the same dignity and proud." I softly pecked his forehead.

He looked in my eyes searching for truth and uniqueness of my words."I understand when I found you, you were scared but later on you could've told me Tae."

"By then it was too late, I was fallen in love with you, I became selfish thinking what if you change your mind or hate me knowing about my past."

"Now, did it change anything now? No..... It wouldn't have changed then too." I sighed.

He stared at me for a bit, "When I graduated high school, my parents owed huge sum to Lee Insuk, the part I missed was Lust Lillies, he passed me there for some amount. There I worked as Venus, we have names to conceal our real identity. I ran away from there once, because I didn't wanted to do it. It made me feel...... that's how I met Jin hyung, I worked in his cafe for sometime.

It was short lived, Ashley, Lust Lillies owner, found me and took me back there, to that disgusting place. Jimin became my friend, he was only one who stood with me in those times. I had no restriction on perusing my studies until I behaved well. I started my degree and lived at Lust Lillies because I was practically Ashley's property. Then one day she told me, some regular client of hers saw me in a oarty and took interest in me. He paid a huge amount in order to take me out of there and marry me to make me his property.

I.... Couldn't stand the idea of marrying someone and be their property, I didn't know. That day in hotel, I tried again and ran away. Life took me to you." He looked at me with tear filled eyes.

"I wasn't looking for love. I was looking for an escape but this....us happened. For the first time I felt loved. I became selfish I didn't want to lose it. I didn't want to lose you. I tried to tell you that I am not worthy of you, but still you loved me. You gave me everything, it made me more selfish. I am sorry I did injustice to you hyung. I don't deserve you.... You are a good man and me.... I am just used trash..... " he burst into tears again holding onto his chest.

"I understand if you don't want me in your life. I am not worthy to be called by your name."

I grabbed both his wrists softly and pulled aways from his face, if I could somehow I would take away all his pain and make it mine. "You are more worthy of my name Taehyung. I am sorry, it happened to you in past and I wasn't there. Now, I am here and I will remain here, firm by your side and nothing can take you away from me."

"You are not disgusted by me?"

"Oh how can I? You are mine and nothing will change it certainly not your past." He looked at me with something unreadable in his eyes. Uncertainty? Hope? Thankfulness? I couldn't decipher.

"No, they will again take me away, now that Jimin knows where I am Ashley will again take me back to that place." he sniffled.

"No one will Taehyung. You are my husband no one will touch you. Whatever amount you owe to that Ashley, I'll throw it in her face." I pulled him towards my chest. Even the thought of him going away from me shakes my whole existence. I can't allow to happen it.

The night was filled with his cries and me trying to calm him into my embrace. I cuddled him close to me until both of us fell to sleep.

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