Illusion | Taekook ✔️

55. Repentance

Kim Seokjin

Human beings are so unpredictable, you can never tell what is going on in someone's mind. We are fascinating creatures smiling and being tough on the outside even if we are dying from the inside. Why is that? What makes us so complex?

Our life? Our circumstances? Or other people. I think the worst impact comes from people. Only if we know how to be gentle and patient with others maybe others have more courage to open up. To be transparent to us. I sighed looking at the sleeping figure of Jimin.

It has been two days, he hasn't woken up yet. Doctor have given the time of one more day if he doesn't wakes up, his body would go in comma. I blame my self too for his situation. If somehow I knew why he approached me, I would've told him the truth. I would have tried hard to make Yoongi understand.

I know that Yoongi is hurting too but he deserves this. However, I am praying for Jimin to wakeup otherwise the guilt of him leaving us would eat me alive. I have never in my life tried to hurt a bug, then this guilt of hurting Jimin, I won't be able to live with it.

I was immersed deeply in my thoughts when I felt a light gaze on my palm. I looked attentively to see Jimin's fingers moving in my hold and his eye lids try to open.

"Jimin... Hey...." I said softly. It took moments for him to open his eyes and I pressed button for summoning help.

A nurse with doctor came they examined him and his vitals, "Everything seems normal, I would suggest don't indulge him in stressful talks, he needs recovery." the doctor told me leaving.

"Jimin....." I said caressing his hand softly. He looked a me before a tear rolled slightly down his eye.

"shhh..... Please don’t cry..... I am sorry." I said removing his tear.

"Why are you sorry? I should be sorry that I can't even die." He sniffed.

"Stop it please Jimin. How can you think of leaving me and Taehyung."

"There seem no point in living when you...."

"I know Jimin you are in love with Yoongi." I said and he snapped his head in my direction.

"Seokjin I......"

"Please let me complete Jimin, I am already late. I know you love him but by the time I realized it was too late. That day after your and Taehyung's talk I realized that you were the man that Yoongi told me he loved....."

"What he said he..."

"Yes he does. He does love you but I am not advocating him here. I realized that you approached me because you knew I was his fiancé." I said and saw his expression fell.

"Oh Jimin only if you've told me I would've helped you."

"What...... Don't you hate me I am in love with your.... fiance."

"No, he isn't my fiance. He is but only on papers. We never had anything between us and we never will. I was engaged to him when I was eighteen, I belonged to a middle class family and I had no choice but Yoongi never pushed me for anything. Not to form any relation because I told him I didn't love him. Although he is just a year older than me but he helped me through my studies and opening the cafe I own.

For me he has been a good friend. I got myself lucky having him. I maybe know him more than anyone else, but I don't love him and neither does he. He is just giving me protection and in exchange his family doesn't push him on marrying.

He told me when he fell in love with you, not your name but just your profession and that he was afraid of fighting for you. There he did wrong, he shouldn't have fallen in love if he was lacking the courage.