Illusion | Taekook ✔️

66. Life Goes On

Kim Seokjin

We human being often think precisely, looking on things that are infront of us but not at their underlying consequences that occur in the result. They say revenge is a dish best serve cold but what if it makes your heart frozen in the process then is it worth it?

I may not any blood relation with Taehyung but I can feel his pain. I've raised him as my own, so I know when he is pretending and when he is not. He is not the same Taehyung whom I rescued nine years ago.

He is a strong man now. One thing I always admired about him was his self respect. Never, once in his life he took anything for pity. He has always earned it, even if he got hurt in the process.

He is hurting even now. He thinks I don't know that he is in love with Jungkook. We can control our mind but not our heart. His heart beats for Jungkook now. I know well, he won't beg for it also. He will not admit that he loves Jungkook because he will never take love given in pity.

He could've told Jungkook everything he has been through since childhood, chances were the other would have understand him better. But he didn't tell  him just because he doesn't want Jungkook to love him out of pity.

Lost in my thoughts, I smiled at his courage when he was laughing with Hoseok and Aerum. Reminds me of the day before Aerum's boarding school departure.

"Our kids have grown up so well." Yoongi spoke, sipping on his wine and passing me too.

"Yes they have, I just want them to be happy now."

"They will, everything is behind us now." Yoongi said.

"I want you to find your happiness too Yoongi. Make ammendments with Jimin."

"I wonder if he will ever forgive me." Yoongi sighed.

"Love holds unimaginable power Yoongi, if you love him the way he did, I am sure with time he will forgive you."

"I am not even sure if I have tendency to love like that." he chuckled.

"You have, you have loved me, Taehyung and Aerum selflessly. Jimin was never wrong you know, everyone wants to be claimed proudly by the one's they love."

"I am the one who was wrong. I'll try my best to never let him down if he gives me one chance." Yoongi smiled dreamily.

"I am just wondering, if Namjoon had come to you for permission to marry Iseul instead of Jungkook then what would have been your answer?"

"I would never say yes." Yoongi confessed and I hummed. What if I tell him the same. I thought to myself.

"Don't you think, you also need to share something with me." Yoongi said tilting his head towards me.

"What? No."

"I thought we were best friends yet I am getting to hear it from other resources."

"Speak clearly Yoongi."

"Inspector Dohyun told me......" he said and I froze at my spot.

"So it's true, seriously Namjoon out of all people." He scoffed.

"I didn't tell you because I wasn't sure at first now I am. I have feelings for him." I confessed it loudly for the first time infront of someone and it felt like a weight is lifted of my heart.

"What about him? Does he feels the same?" Yoongi questioned calmly.

"He does but he doesn't consider himself worthy of love."

"I want nothing but for you to be happy. Namjoon is not someone you deserve. You deserve someone better, someone whole who would love you. Namjoon has a past and for five years he...."

"I will wait for him and none of us are whole. Everyone has some lost parts no human being is whole. I hope you'll respect my choice. I didn't love him out of pity or something. I was inclined towards him, even before I knew who he was. Maybe I have had a chance to see a side of him that he hides from everyone. I know he and I stand on different ends and maybe you are right that he is not the ideal kind of man for me. However, around him I feel right."

"You are not gonna back down no matter what I say?"

"No... I won't back down."

"If you are happy like this then I'll support you in your every decision but if he hurt you in any way then I won't spare his life."

"I hope you had same standards for Jimin too..." I am not gonna let do any chance to make him regret.

"Hah... You aren't gonna let this slide ever."

"Never." I smiled. "He is a good person and you had hurt him badly Yoongi. He was stronger then me and you, yet you somehow broke him to such an extent that he ended up taking his life. Yoongi he loves you. A kind of love that you will never find in your life again."

"You think that I don't know that or I don't love him?"

"No, I know you love him but I just don't want you to lose it."

"I won't. I have few things to take care of. Then I'll leave Min Corp. if I have to. I'll do anything to seek his forgiveness." Yoongi smiled.

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Two days later, when I came to wake up Taehyung for breakfast, his room was empty. I checked bathroom, balcony he wasn't anywhere. I found a letter on his table.

With shaky hands I opened it that stated,

Dear Seokjin Hyung,

I am sorry with this letter I would be disappointing you but I have no other way. If I try my whole life, I'll never be able to thank enough what you did for me and Aerum. We never shared a blood relation but I found both my mother and father in you.

I know how you used to put your necessities aside to take care of us. I know how you give us both your whole. So, I want to thank you for the love and care you gave us. If I stay here I would be making you more worried about me.

Don't worry about me, I am not fourteen year old boy whom you found by the trash. I am a man that you and Yoongi hyung made. So, I'll take care of myself from now onwards.

I just need some time away to figure out myself, then I will be back because who will look after you when you will become grey and old?

Yes, always keep smiling like that.

Your Son (I can't see it otherwise),

Kim Taehyung.

I clutched on to letter crying a bit. I know he can take care of himself but still I am scared. I called Yoongi immediately but he made me realize that I can't should not persuade him to come back. When he will figure out he will come back on his own. So, I had no choice but to wait.

The days followed seem like a routine. Opening cafe everyday and closing it at the end of the day. For a whole week, I wait for 15 minutes every Sunday to see Namjoon. He has been into therapy which is working well.

In those fifteen minutes sometimes there is silence and sometimes memories of his past. I feel sorry for him that he has to go through all of it alone. However, I am hopeful better days will soon come for me and him.

Through Yoongi, I came to know that Jungkook's company was in ruins. He helped him getting back on track. He knew Jungkook would never take his help directly so he used his allies to invest in company and trying to restore the reputation. It can not be same as it was but it'll be better eventually.

I just wish that with the passing time, each of us will heal like we deserve to be. They say there is no better medicine than the medicine of time. I hope the time will shape us into the happiest version of ourselves.

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I wonder what will happen for Taehyung...👀

Love from my side 💜