Illusion | Taekook ✔️

45. The Moment Of Realization

Kim Seokjin

I looked at my reflection in the mirror, being done with my night skin care routine. I sighed remembering how Yoongi behaved. I left the mansion immediately. He wasn't wrong, given what he had experienced in past.

I heard bell of my door ringing, I glanced at side table clock it was five minutes into midnight. Who would have been here at this time. My best bet was Yoongi, but when I looked at intercom screen, it was not him it was Namjoon.

I gulped heavily, in that moment I felt stupid for showing him my place. The deed was done there is no going back now. I opened the door and his swollen eyes met mine, "I didn't know where to go Seokjin, please." He said in a pleading voice.

I nodded my head, now I am not heartless enough to ask him to leave in the middle of night, am I? Sometimes you unconsciously sabotage yourself believing that it is reality but it is not. Its just your heart trying to manipulate you.

He took a seat on the couch and I brought drink offering him. I sat beside him. "Wanna talk?" I asked.

He looked at me, as if I said something wierd, "My baggage is too much Seokjin, I don't think so you can handle it in one night." I saw a lone tear roll down his eye.

"Well, you can try bit by bit." I don't know why I was saying.

"What's the point?" he chuckled bitterly.

"Then why were you standing at my door in the middle of night." I asked.

"I don't know, I drove with no destination in mind but I ended up here at your door."

"Umm... Maybe you needed your shirt." he chuckled at my comment, wiping down his cheek.

"You are a....." he looked at me as if he was finding right words "....a blessing Seokjin, a calm to my chaos, an edge to my ocean, sanity to my insanity."

I was speechless for the first time, should I believe his words? The delimma was right infront of me. It was about choosing sides, it was about trust and betrayal, in that moment I was naive enough to think what if I try and do both. Create a mid way.

So I took his hand into mine, "I didn't know you were poetic enough."

"Its truth that rolled over my tongue." he said finding something in my eyes. I am not going to give myself away, not yet.

"Did something happen at the party? You can tell me."

He looked at me smiling, "Yes, I know you aren't gonna hurt me.... I just... I am a failure Seokjin. I can't do one thing right."

"Did you lose some business deal or something?"

"No........ A chance at being a good son again, maybe." he smiled.

"Okay I won't push." I caressed the back of his hand.

"Since the day I saw my brother in law, I knew something was off about him. Long story short, I searched about him and got to know that he worked as a prostitute there before landing into my brother's life.

Today in party I exposed him with proof but my brother slapped me telling that he already knows. Which was a white lie. He fucking slapped me infront of all people for that fucking whore." My heart almost failed. My Taehyung. But I need to be calm.

"Stop it Namjoon, why would you do that?." I let his hand go and he looked in my direction with shock written all over his face.

"What.. I...."

"I took you for a arrogant prick when I first met you, but I didn't know you judged people based on their past and what's wrong about being a prostitute. Isn't he human? You don't know his reasons then how can you judge him. On the top of that you humiliated him infront of whole world. "

"You are also telling me that I am wrong for exposing a liar. I don't know what motive he has for coming to my brother."

"Oh come on your brother is not a kid. He can see for himself, you don't have right to interfere in their life." I reasoned.

"You are unbelievable Seokjin....."

"I am unbelievable? Let's be honest, don't you have any guilt in your past?" I looked at him, maybe I could make him realize.

He stared at me for sometime before answering, "I have I do have." he said.

"Then what if someone exposes you infront of whole world? How would you feel?"

"Seokjin there is a difference between me and him he is nothing while I am...." he said holding back ny hand.

"You are privileged? That's the difference right.... Are you for real?"

"Why are you so worked up on some pathetic whore?" I jerked his hand away as soon as he said this.

"That's the difference between me and you, we see people in different light. I might not know him personally, but I won't judge anyone like that. I give people a chance to see them for who they are."

"You are overreacting Jin, he is no one please look at me."

"Leave Namjoon. That's enough...."

"Seokjin I...."

"I said leave..." tears start to roll down my face.

"Jin you are crying, let me me..."

"Away... I can't stand a person with your mentality. Leave me please..."

"Seokjin why are you doing this to me. I am telling you all of this because, I feel you are different to me then others are. You are pushing me away on something that doesn't even concern you."

"How you see and treat people will concern me. If you want a part in my life then you have to change your ways Namjoon, I can't see you hurting yourself while bringing down others."

"And become what weak and pathetic?"

"Being kind and accepting doesn't means you will be pathetic, you would be doing great favor to yourself and others."

"I am ruined already....."

"Namjoon I why you can't......"

He stood up cutting me of, "I will prove that I am right and everyone will see, how capable I am." he made his way to the door.

"Namjoon..... I wish... I really wish you drop this hate and inequality in your heart before it's too late. Then there would be nothing but regret."

He didn't answer and left, I let my body fall on the couch, hiding my face into my palms, crying it all out. In that moment I realized Yoongi was right. Some people are just so full of themselves that they think others are insignificant.

I realized and rushed to find my phone. I dialed Yoongi's number immediately, with my heart thumping loudly.

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I feel bad for Jinnie 🤧

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