We all sat in my living room, everyone, Zion, Cindy, Edwin, Alissa, Brandon, Maggie, Austin, Ansley, Catherine, Austin and all of the children. Angelo and Valentina just got home with Zion and Cindy. I was terrified, what were they gonna say? They ran to me and gave me a big hug! A hugged them back super tight.
"Dada?" Valentina yells after Nick. Immediately my tears started falling. I didn't know how to handle it. My heart broke knowing they weren't gonna see him anymore. They looked at me confused.
"Why are you crying?" Angelo asks hugging me.
"I have to tell you guys something." I say through the tears. Maggie put Valentina in her lap and Austin took Angelo while I tried to compose myself.
"So as you know, sometimes, people become angels after living on earth for a while, right? Just like my mama and dada are angels." Angelo nods and so does Valentina, even though I know she's a little confused. "So yesterday, dada became an angel." I see Angelo tearing up while Valentina was still trying to process what I said.
"Dada come home?" Valentina asks.
"No honey dada will not come home anymore."
"But he didn't say goodbye." Angelo says wiping his eyes. All you could hear were sniffles from the room, there was not a dry eye.
"Come to mama." I say. He walks over to me and I hug him in my lap.
"Dada, didn't know, it just happened. I bet ya he's just as surprised as us." I say. Angelo nods.
"Does dada see us?" Angelo says. Edwin who was sitting next to us put his hand on Angelo's back.
"Yes Angelo, your dada is watching you right now, and I can promise you he's sad he can't be with you and Valentina, but he loves you both so so much and he knows you guys love him too. He's proud of you and is always gonna protect you." Edwin says. Ansley scoots closer.
"Edwins right, every time you feel scared or nervous, you can just think about your father being right there with you. We know it's not easy for you or Valentina, and it's super hard for mommy too, but we are all here for you, we all really miss your father and we understand how you feel." She says. We continued to talk about him, exchanging memories we had with Nick and just tried to make each other feel better.
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901 692 likes @chantelmara I really wish I'd never had to make this kind of a post, but unfortunately the circumstances are unchangeable. Nicholas Carter Mara, my soulmate, the best husband to exist and the absolute best father! I can not process the fact that I you are no longer a living human being, the fact that there is no possible way for me to communicate with you anymore, I cannot see you, hear you, speak to you, feel you or love you. My heart is broken and our kids miss you like hell. I'm thankful I held onto you a little longer the day of your passing, I'm happy I told you I love you and I'm happy our last moments were spent on good terms. I never understood why my mother left earth after my fathers death, I didn't understand why she did it or how she had the heart to leave me, but now, now I do, I feel so empty and weak, like there is no happiness without you, like I'm worthless, even though I know you'd hate me for saying so. Of course, I could never leave our kids, I love them more than life itself and knowing what being alone feel like gives me another perspective to it. Nick, you are loved by everyone, you always put yourself second and made sure everyone was okay before handing your own problems. You spoiled me and always told me, as well as showed me, how much you love me and I've always been so thankful you were the one. You were my rock, the one that humbled me, thought me life lessons, showed me what true love was and you were the funnies guy I knew. Your name withholds so much meaning to me and I will forever praise your name. I can not explain in words the pain and sorrow I feel. Your moma, Angelo, Valentina, all of your friends and I miss you so so much, we would do anything, literally anything, to bring you back, unfortunately we can't. Instead we will keep your legacy alive and you will be known for the amazing man you are. Thank you for the most amazing years of my life. Rest In Peace my darling, I love you forever.❤️🕊
