Lost but found

Chapter thirty seven

Novas POV

Good lord please save me.okay I guess I'm gonna be singing for these lot. fennon sat me down and smiled " you're gonna do great" and I thought to myself how does she know I could sound like a constipated cat for all we knew. I think I'd know if I sounded like a constipated cat I think. Anyway I'm struggling with what to sing because it's a piano and I dunno I'm panicking. " erm I wrote this song a few years ago but yeh it's not that good" I said but Colin spoke " I bet it's amazing" he said and I smiled at him he seems to get that I don't wanna do this. I'll be fine I hope. I let out a big sigh and I started to plays one keys to see what it all sounded like. " okay I guess I'll start" I said looking back at them all Scarlett and Colin were at my side but she hadn't spoke she just was giving a small smile I mean I could really embarrass her. Oh shit what if I'm crap and they take this piss out of me because my mothers talented. Okay nope not a good thing to smile myself out. " you okay novs?" Vanessa asked and I nodded and I started to play.

( listen to the song above if you wanna know what it sounds like)

I ended the song and I risked looking up at them all I was abit emotional because it's not exactly a happy song. They all looked so sad and I swear that's not what I wanted " you're really talented sport" grandpa said which made me smile abit I still feel like crying but that's my own fault. I stood up and gave them all a tight smile I need to just be alone because if I cry infront of these people I'm gonna lock myself in a room and never leave. Forget that so I said " I'm gonna go to the bathroom" and I didn't wait  and I just walked out. I only just realised I had no clue where that was so I ended up ina. Room upstairs is opened the door and it was a room. I guess this is going to have to do. I let my tears fall but I made sure to lock the door behind me. I tried to not make a noise but I heard a knock. " nova open the door I know you're in there" what the hell is Colin doing up here. I wiped my face and I saw him stood with a small smile before I could say a work though he walked into the room. " cry, yell, stay silent but I'm not letting you be alone" is all he said and he sat down on the bed. I just stood silently I didn't know what was happening and I froze. " what?" I managed fo say and he gave me another smile " you need to let out the emotion I can see that but I don't want you to do that alone. You don't have to." And I nodded before I knew what I was doing I felt my tears get wet and I knew I was crying again. I sat down on the floor and I just sobbed but I felt him hug me. " you're okay" he said and I nodded I am I'm just being silly. " how did  you know" I whispered as I looked at him he let me go and sat next to me " I could see it in you're eyes. I should know I was a very emotional child. I was bullied  when I was younger and wel it not even near what you're going through but that's how I knew" and I nodded " what about everyone else?" And he looked at me " they don't know don't worry. Although I think we should tell-" ans I cut him off " no. We're not telling Scarlett please" and he nodded thank god for that. She wants her happy family and Colin only knows abit. He only knows I'm crying ina. Spare room but not what or why. " music is my way of coping. That songs personal they all are" I said and he hummed " do you mind me asking who's it about" and I nodded " I wrote it about my grandmother well my fake one I guess. But she died when I was 10. She was always on my side and she loved me. She was only 48 when she passed" I said and he nodded " I'm sorry you went through that" and I nodded " when she died it all got much worse again. " I whispered but I didn't think he'd heard but he did because he asked me " why?" And I panicked I ain't talking about that and it's my fault for saying that. " it doesn't matter past us the past" and he spoke quickly " not if it's still hurting us" and I looked at him he's. A good man " I'm here for you novs. I know we've only Known each other for 4 days but you are my child. I'm here for you  and so is you're mother" I just nodded I dunno how to tell him that there better of without me. That I just bring baggage and I'm not good enough. He doesn't need to hear that. " I seem to always end up in this spot" I said chuckling lightly and he looked at me curious while I wiped my eyes " when I found out Scarlett could be my mum at school me and Peter were in the bathroom sat like this while I cried" and he gave me a smile " well I'll be you're Peter while he's not here" and he bumped his shoulder with mine  which made me smile back at him. " thanks Colin I really miss him" and he nodded his face changed though like he was thinking about something but I just raised an eyebrow and he laugh and stood up offering me a hand " come on
Mini Scarlett let's get you back before my wife has us both" and I laughed scrunching my face and taking his hand he helped me up and we walked out. " Colin?" I said while we walked out a small he turned to smile at me " that meant a lot to me" which made him put his arm around me and I chuckled. We walked downstairs and I saw Scarlett stood looking worried but when she saw us she let out a visible breath " novalie" she said pulling me into a hug. I was confused but Colin smiled at me and left yeh room but before he went he gave me a thumbs up.

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