Caris
I can't believe Dean brought me back to the beach, like last time! I loved it here, I loved the sound of the waves crashing and the feel of sand on my bare feet. Most of all though I think I had fallen in love with the man who brought me to the beach. I almost said it, but I can't, I know he could never love me back and that hurts already.
I know if I said those three words he would then have to reject my heart and I can't handle that. Only its too late he had me sit on his face, fucked me hard and still I felt so loved, When he was carrying my limp body to the car, my aching body, feeling so stretched with sand in placed I do not enjoy.
I know I fucked up, I let myself tell him, and I know I shouldnt have, but being a little tipsy from wine and having just had the best orgasm high, my heart was open, and I couldnt hold it back.
Tomorrow I know he will break my heart, but it's also Mark's daughter's birthday the day after.
I woke up in my bed, but with no Dean next to me, the bed didn't smell of him either. I cried I knew that I had fucked up telling him what I had and so maybe he was done with me, I knew he could never love me and I knew this was just casual to him.
I sighed and got into the shower, maybe I can pretend it never happened, maybe I can at least stay and keep my job, I will be okay.
I will see Dean bring girls home like that whore, hear them fuck and make them both breakfast. I was never going to be more than his maid anyways.
I changed into my leggings, and tied my hair up. Only I noticed that I had started my period, I had not had one in so long because of the implant messing with my cycles. I started to cramp like my tummy was being stabbed, and a heat radiated through my nerves.
I felt nauseous and sick. What was worse was that I didn't have any pads, shit.
I went to the bathroom and piled some tissue into my knickers, it will have to do.
I didn't want to ask Dean, and I didn't need to do a food order today, so I can't expect Dean to be okay with the delivery charges just for one item.
I needed to clean, to work and take my mind off of this literal mess. I owe that much to Dean after I blew it.
I headed to the kitchen, which always seemed so bright and sunny compared to the rest of the house. After some water, an apple and paracetamol I looked for my note.
Dean hadn't left a list, no note and maybe it's just because he had plans later, or maybe it's because he has lost all interest in me, even in me working as his maid.
I hoover, mop, clean all the bathrooms and put laundry away as well as dust and polish before lunch time.
Dean had been out and I had no idea if he was going to ask me to leave. Tomorrow being julias party, what if he no longer wanted me to come. I was trying to hold my newly cracked heart together from falling apart into many more pieces.
I make a sandwich and a cup of tea and sit where we usually sit together at the breakfast bar.
I know my eyes are fighting back tears. Why let them escape though, my pain is unimportant, I should just be used to the fact my life was destined for pain and heartache.
Dean still wasn't back home by 5pm, unsure if I was supposed to make him dinner at 6pm or pack my bags.
I layed on the sofa, putting the TV on, not minding what was playing. I cuddled the cushion and tried to breathe.
YOU ARE READING
Captured Hearts
RomanceBeing the son to the infamous leader of the Italian Mafia Isn't always easy! Dean Sorento counts his blessings that he was raised away from that; by his mother in London! What happens when Caris, a girl who lost everything after her Dad's untimely...