I bite my lips as hard as I can without completely biting through them, the words I said into the air ended up being to Miles and I can't forgive myself, I have nowhere to go.
I can't go to him because I've hurt him too much, going on for a walk seems pointless, my dorm is empty and lonely and I have no mother to go back home to. I feel so helpless and yet, there's nothing I can do to feel better.
I've never had Miles be the one mad at me and it feels odd, something I don't like, as if I've lost myself somehow and become him, I don't say these things, I don' hurt the people around me like this; not the way he always does but right now, Miles wants nothing to do with me.
I can't leave tonight like this, I can't get back into my dorm. I look around me, but he's gone, disappeared into the dark night, the starry night that despite its beauty is torturing me.
I feel tears streaming down my eyes and the ice of the night grabs them, freezing them on my cheek and making the wind only blow colder air on the wetness.
I take a deep breath, I don' want to be here right now. I feel myself running into the wind, I quickly approach a location I'm not familiar with.
I'm surrounded by trees and I can't comprehend how long I've been running. The stars have seemed to absorb me, the stars have now consumed me.
Despite the icy cold, I find that my feet can't take me any further and I feel them collapse under me, I feel me collapse under them, and before I know it, I'm lying on the ground, on the green grass.
Miles's POV
I watch the road before me as it travels under me, consumed by me and disappearing under me.
I should have known ha our end was near, that nothing could have come out of this. I can't help but watch back at all of the memories we have together, everything I've said, everything I've done, it feels like a load, and yet, it feels like nothing, it feels as though it didn't need to spiral like this; not like this . . . not with her.
I would have taken this crap with anyone else, anyone else. I would have let them go, cut this cap loose, and found another girl to stay in bed with the morning after, but I can't, not with Madison. It's as if all of my desires for anyone else have completely disappeared; as if every desire I've ever had for anyone else was never there, as if I can't taste what it would feel like to want someone else.
It was supposed to be the other way around, she was supposed to be hurt and that was it, I was supposed to win, it was supposed to be the end, but even though I won, I lost.
I feel the speed increasing and I decide to turn off the road with a smash of the breaks, pebbles, and whatever the fuck not shoot away from the car and onto t main road.
I can't let her go that easy.
I qucikly turn the wheel around and slam the gas as the Porsche turns around and drives me to the opposite side of the road.
Before I know it, I'm right where we started, right where I saw her last, when she told me how she really feels. I follow her footsteps but when I approach closer and closer to where she went, I realize that I can't follow her. She said all of those things because she meant them, that's how she feels and II can't change those feelings, no matter how hard I try.
"Goodbye, Madison." I gulp down the difficult words, get back into my car, and drive home. I bite my lips as hard as I can without completely biting through them, the words I said into the air ended up being to Miles and I can't forgive myself, I have nowhere to go. I can't go to him because I've hurt him too much, going on for a walk seems pointless, my dorm is empty and lonely and I have no mother to go back home to. I feel so helpless and yet, there's nothing I can do to feel better.
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The Perfect Storm 3
RomanceAfter tragedy has struck Madison and Miles in more ways than one, things start to change and so do their lives. New York and Santa Monica seem to be oceans apart and when new people start entering their lives, threatening to tear the little hope the...