BTS Sickfics

Seokjin: Ignored Sickness

i cant remember if this was a request or not. i looked through the requests lists and couldnt see a name, but if you requested this, lmk so i can add credit here

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Seokjin's POV -

I wake up with the most stinking cold you can imagine. My head burns, my body sweats with fever, and I can't stop coughing. I feel weak, like I've just been hit by a car, and I feel a little dizzy when I finally manage to get myself to sit up.

I stare into the bleak hotel room, letting my body sway a little as dizziness takes over. We're right in the middle of the tour, so this cold really can't come at a worse time. Thinking about performing makes my stomach turn. Oh God, I actually am going to be sick.

I make it to the bathroom just in time. I miss the toilet a little, not being able to hold it in whilst I was kneeling down, but it doesn't really matter. I retch and cough, throwing up another stream of puke every now and then, until I'm completely empty. I throw up bile, and, even though I continue to retch and groan in pain, there's nothing more for me to throw up.

I thought being sick might help me feel better, but, as I kneel in the boringly beige bathroom, my head resting against the toilet seat, I shake violently, and I can feel just how hot my body is all over. My joints ache every time I move. If I get up to perform, I think I might actually faint.

Sickness happens a lot over tour, but not usually to this extent. There's lots of sore throats, coughs, colds, lost voices, sore joints, and cuts, but very rarely do members actually faint from illness. I think I'll be the third if I do get that bad.

The problem is, even though we have a medic coming around with us, we aren't assigned to doctors in each country we visit, and it's hard to find time to get hospital appointments. In countries like the UK, the waiting list to get in anywhere is so long it's impossible for us to just walk in. It means that, even when we need it, we don't get the care, or the medicine we need.

I should be okay. I can go and get some fever meds from the local pharmacy, and hopefully dose myself up and calm down before the concert starts. If I have to drop out of sound check, then it'll just have to be. I need to make sure I'm at my best before I go on stage for the real thing.

We're in France right now, which means there is a language barrier, but I think I know the English to get me what I want, and I'll just have to hope that the French pharmacist will understand what I mean. We've been given payment cards that we can use across Europe, so I know I can pay, and I'm allowed to go out by myself. I have no reason to not go and get them.

So why am I still sitting here, shivering on the bathroom floor? My stomach feels so unsettled still, even though I can't throw up anymore, and everytime I move, I feel awfully dizzy. I don't know how well I can stand. It sounds a little dramatic to say I'm actually scared.

I finally manage to drag myself to my feet, and get myself dressed. I have to lie on my bed to get my trousers on, but I eventually manage it, and I tie my shoes. I stand up, and my head spins. I feel myself sway, and I reach out to hold something, but there's nothing. My body crumples to the floor, my vision turning black.

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I come around to a strange noise. I have no idea what's going on, or where I am. I feel all floaty and sore. I can't work out what that noise is, nor how to move my body. I have little understanding of what's just happened to me.

"Seokjin!" a voice cries. I recognise the noise to be someone knocking on the door, and the new clarity is enough to help me come back around properly. I'm sick, and I've just fainted. Someone must be coming to help me. "Seokjin, open the door!"