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Jimin: Coughing Blood (+A/N)

okay

when this story started to gain popularity, i made a promise to myself not to moan or complain about anything, since im lucky that this is doing so well.

yeah no

last night my namjoon story got 1/3 of the reads jimin, jungkook, and p much every other members get. yeah. to say im upset is an understatement.

everyone who wanted to request for jimin: guess what. you missed them. completely. guess my namjoon stories are just that awful ig.

quite frankly i didnt even want to upload this chapter. i guess i was imbecilic to think all members would be loved equally.

and like im not even moaning to make people feel bad, or to guilt trip you into reading the namjoon chapter. i just feel really down about it. as a writer, it actually really hurts ?? i put so much time and effort into writing equally for all members, for what? im not the only writer who feels this way, either.

ill put this simply. i wont continue if this is the sort of support i get. are you even here for my writing, or are you here bc jimin is in the title? bc theres stories about jungkook?

maybe ill regret this a/n later. i hate to moan. i hate to call people out. i hate to act like im not thankful for everything, and all the attention this story has got. im just down that namjoon and hoseok are ignored, when i work hard to bring these stories to light.

i feel like theres so much more i want to say. more i want to address. but i just dont have the energy? will anyone even read this? no, its a jimin chapter. just skip past ig. maybe im just a little salty

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requests by taetxwn, patak24, and someone requested jimin coughing blood but i didnt save the name

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Jimin's POV -

Today is a very special performance. We're at the MAMA awards show, and we have our usual half an hour slot to perform on stage, in front of everyone else. I actually really love these performances, as we always do something special, and add more to the choreography. As a member of the dance line, I've got a solo, too. We just released a new album, so this is the first time the choreography has been changed.

We get ready behind the scenes, since we're going to be opening the awards show tonight. Although the auditorium is full of other celebrities, we can't hear anything from back here, and for some reason, that makes my nerves worse.

Performing in front of other k-pop idols is much scarier than fans. Even though they're supportive, and will cheer for us, they're much more critical, and will definitely see any tiny mistakes you make. If they don't like you, then they'll make sure you know. We've gotten way too many cold shoulders at k-pop awards shows over the years. I can never understand why.

What makes it even scarier is that, even though we practice the special dances, solos, and choreo changes every day for months before the event, it's a high chance that we make a mistake. Sometimes your brain just goes into muscle memory, and you start to follow the old choreo. Like I said, even if it's just a second's lapse, everyone watching us will see it.

I adjust the mic over my mouth one more time, and give one, long sigh. I can do this. We can all do this. We've been looking forward to this for months. We're going to have fun, and afterwards, we'll get to see all of our friends.