The Sapphic Christmas

7th December. part 2

Ella

"Good morning, everyone. Today is the 7th of December, which means that only two weeks until Christmas Eve." I say to the camera joyfully. I'm honestly happy about Christmas, but not in the way I pretend to be. Counting days is not for me, I get boring from saying same things day-by-day. "I'm now leaving London and going to Worthing. What for? Look further and find out." I hope this doesn't turn people off. "I have an important question for you: has it already snowed this year? In some parts of the UK it was snowing. For some reason, wherever I drive, I can't find it. And I really want snow, especially today. It's just that for me Christmas is unreal if there's no snow. This is one of the most important parts of the holiday." I say.

I'm standing at the window of the room. My friend, with whom we rarely communicate, is also going to Worthing, and therefore she agrees to give me a ride. I'm very grateful to her, because this way I won't spend much time on the road. Before meeting with Sophie, I need to look into the office, which really has nothing to do with me. They're doing some kind of charity event. As I understand it, all they ask me is to sign some boxes of cosmetics. I don't know how that would help, but Katrina said it was all right. I think they'll sell it in double price and then give money to charity.

I'm quickly packing up and ready to go. I don't know where to leave my suitcase. I hope I can come up with something.

Turning off the camera, I finish dressing and makeup and just wait for a call or text from a friend. In order not to waste time, I start editing another video for the main channel, since I already posted yesterday's vlog.

Soon, Carell arrives and we set off with her. I've noticed that it's quite fun to drive with Sophie in the car. Now I feel a little bored, although we also talk and listen to music. In fact, even then I don't know what to do. I don't get how people can be cheeky when they're driving with someone they don't know. Being in their place, I've realized that there's nothing complicated in this. Sophie's from that category of people who are very kind to you all the time. In my opinion, she never condemns anyone, at least she doesn't do it openly.

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My new pleasure is shopping with Sophie, especially in home-décor section. She becomes my "tail", always somewhere close. To be honest, it feels like we're in relationship and it's our house. I know I'm extra crushing in her now, but at least it's fun to think about. We sniff some candles (I really like the gingerbread, Sophie prefers vanilla), we lay in the beds, talk at the kitchen like it's ours.

"Do you mind if we go to the grocery store when we go home? I have absolutely no food at home."

"No problem." I don't think I need to be asked for my opinion.

My suitcase is at Carell's house. I put the most necessary things in a backpack. During the trip, it lays somewhere between all the toys and decorations that Sophie bought today with my help.

"Let's go". She stops her car near some supermarket. "What do you want for breakfast?" We take eggs, milk, baguette and some veggies.

"Mind if I vlog now?" I ask Sophie. It seems she's anxious around the camera. I'm a little uncomfortable too. I haven't quite figured out yet how I feel about it. I'm not used to the fact that I'm a vlogger, that someone watches my videos. I don't know how long it'll take me to fully realize the full significance of my channel in my own life.

"No problem." I step back a little, but I'm still in the girl's line of sight. I feel a little more relaxed. Turning on the camera, I point it at myself with the lens.

"Now Sophie and I have stopped by the grocery store, because tonight I'm staying at her house for the night. This store is located in some small town, I like places like this, you just look at how everything is decorated here. Even the store looks like it's from fairy tale. I feel like I have fallen into some small world, which neither time nor society touches." I move the camera and show it.

I talk to the camera and the audience for few minutes, after which I go back to Sophie, with whom we manage to disperse on different sides of the store. I see she's tired, so I insist that I'll drive, and she rests a little. Of course, she tries to argue. It's not successful. C'mon, I suggested it not only for her health, but for my own. Anything can happen if the driver is sleepy.

It's exciting for me to enter her apartment for the first time. Yes, I've already seen in the photos when I've been thinking about how we can decorate the rooms. However, being there for the first time is a slightly different feeling.

"I'll make a bed for you. You only need to put on bed sheets, I forgot about it in the morning." Sophie says, trying to hide the fatigue in her voice, but it only becomes more obvious.

"Where are you going to sleep?" As far as I understand, there is only one bed here.

"On sofa at the living room."

"We can share a bed. It's quite big." She smiles, but shakes her head. Yet, I'm embarrassed that I came to her house and also knocked her out of her own bed.

Still, we do as the girl intended. I slept alone on the big bed and she's on the couch.